I also have a photoshoot from this year called Expectations, it totally reminds me of 2 Souls On Fire (not this) from the album. …Was that all I had to say about it? One random night Matt went out with me and we decided to take pictures of this black dress n shit that I was wearing. Was wearing the dress sideways and after that never saw the dress again, so, you know, pretty typical. Lol. Most stuff I put in a blog post is like fashion I actually care about so then I take good care of it. I’m about to put this bombass clothing rack in my room just have to figure a way to cram it and move out the table, you know how these things go.

That was a pretty bomb shoot. I’m deciding to go ahead and post this now, it is how it is, and hopefully I can squeeze in some more posts later. I’ve been putting pics up in my room so much these daze. Also i’ll be selling a lot of clothes as seen on me here. Stay tuned. Stay tuned?! What if I don’t want to?! Look, if you’re really into the kind of clothes I am, I’ll have tons when I flip to my new style store that I have yet to build. I’m sitting on this cool little pink thing in my room right now in my corner and it’s comfy but kinda hurts my butt. Anyway this photoshoot was me trying to show Matt how I liked to be photoshoot while also wearing glittery makeup in the middle of the night and trying not to get busted for being out at 4am taking loud pictures.

Not sure what we were high on, but this was one of the first photoshoots we actually even did together, and frankly it’s not a favorite. I’m not gonna go back and fix all the collages into cooler ones, I’ll trust that I already slammed it enough. Unsure of what that meant though. Hahaha.

EXPECTATIONS

THAT;’s

Not sure what we were high on, but this was one of the first photoshoots we actually even did together, and frankly it’s not a favorite. I’m not gonna go back and fix all the collages into cooler ones, I’ll trust that I already slammed it enough. Unsure of what that meant though. Hahaha.

Not sure what we were high on, but this was one of the first photoshoots we actually even did together, and frankly it’s not a favorite. I’m not gonna go back and fix all the collages into cooler ones, I’ll trust that I already slammed it enough. Unsure of what that meant though. Hahaha.

Let me end this on a note that I prefer. So the world expects a lot from me. Maybe the blogger friends I have expect me to write like I’m not hungover. Maybe my boyfriend expects me to not have a few friends that are guys but where are my girl friends? Maybe my parents expect me to curse less and don’t do as many drugs. Maybe my idols expect nothing of me and are actually self-consumed. Maybe Bebe Rexha is expected to automatically love herself but it takes time. We’ll see what I become, we’ll seee what I struggle with, what I triumph, what I do, how I feel….It’s all variables. I’m not afraid of the expectations I place on myself. I just dyed my hair last night (back to red) in the middle of the night with my dad and I finally haven’t been on hard drugs everyday and I finally have like quit cigarettes – none of this was what I was expecting. I wasn’t expecting to love myself so quickly and so fully. It wasn’t a choice, but damn I’m rocking it like it were mine. I love myself dearly and have secured that. I’m working on my second room. I’m improving myself everyday, but hey, I don’t take allll the credit for getting to finally love myself! I just take the benefits. 🙂 Reminds me of Girl in the Mirror by Bebe Rexha…that should be a blog post soon! Stay tuned. I love you all….glad to be back!!!

EXPECTATIONS ALBUM