Hey guys it’s a new year! Remember when I did all those shoots in 2019 and didn’t post them until 2020? Or remember the handful of shoots I did in 2020 that I slowly released with them? Yeah it was a good year for catching up. Today I have one of the last photoshoots to post from last year, and I’m thinking of doing it old style. I might crop the pictures or use them full size. So this was from November and I’m now getting it up this January, it was with some rad pants and this Emotional Support Animal graphic tee from Rainsford which I got at an Aly&AJ concert in 2017. Met the girl, it was super cool. Now me with emotional support with myself includes a lot of breathers and some guilt-ridden “get-rid of” things and feelings. Things I could pass on, like excessive vaping, and this random sobriety block that I have with only weed. It’s weird but it’s my life. The lighting for this shoot was interesting. Tried to get it something right but it’s a left. Oh well, finally got my front page of blog posts in the right order.
In 2019 I did so much for myself and my photography, I really did. With the slowing down in 2018 up until the half (and the backdated) like It’s Not U (being one of the only posts I posted in 2019) and all the hair changes, well I’ve finally zeroed down at this point with my hair growing out and toning down… So now I’m here with my half-balayage and my room at my moms again just to be back here posting. I’ve got thousands of pictures of me at my moms, all so different, and fixing my set-up comes soon even. The biggest 2020 addition to my room was the magazine rack, and I’m back with my CD Collection as well, which was always here. So let me tell you a bit about my photography and my merchandise and how it intertwines with my style and my inspiration. One of my only regrets was doing a shoot like Liberation with Matt’s dirty mirror and then not having anything to write about with it, it being the last thing I did in 2018 for my blog. So whatever lack of connection there can’t change my ambition, I’ve seriously found a new ambition. It’s almost hard to explain but one day I just sat in my chair with my hair up, knowing that none of my extensions will fit me for a while, and got pictures of my Playboy shirt from Missguided. I don’t think I ever got pictures of that lot of clothes, something I would’ve done a couple years ago. Like a NastyGal box of clothes that I filed in my book with the order receipt, each thing on the list marked off into pictures, and I kept track. Seriously I used to not miss a thing with my blog. But inspired by Billie I recently cut the nightmare white graphic tees into a crop top and came back home to take a million pictures, not minding that I was cutting out my face. This is where I cross paths to things like CelebrityMerchBase to keep track of all those cool merch shirts I’ve gotten. I even missed that Billie concert but still got the shirts even. This post is about those two things. No wonder about Playboy Style or Billie’s. I named this Scary World! as a good one so thanks all for another Shop For Days post!
One of my favorite things ever is when I get this wind of inspiration to do a shoot in whatever I’m wearing, I’ve been connecting photoshoots to other days like a playlist! So in August 2019 I got my hair done at Gene Juarez after I dyed it (with Lime Crime’s Valentine) and did this photoshoot outside with Matt and even in the rain I got some interesting pictures. I always thought this was a really interesting shoot. I’ll start with that off the plate. I haven’t cried in months though so here’s another small shoot with a last year. Hahaha.
This is a post I’ve been waiting for, with 3 different dated photoshoots. Two are from 2019 but the last one is definitely recent. I used to relate every photoshoot I did to a song or album at least, and there are songs that coordinate to these, but it’s a bit different. I had the Tove Lo vinyl signed poster up for the longest time actually so I threw in Passion & Pain for a headline for this one, but yeah as slow as I can go I still am excited for these shoots. Whatever tastes the same as pleasure! Pursue. Prosper.
From my dad’s old apartment being a year of my life with plenty of photoshoots, I’ve got a good start blogging again at my mom’s house. I did a bunch of photoshoots there that I still haven’t posted so even though this new editor is a pain and I don’t know how to collage it very well I’m still proud to be posting again in 2020 (and usually backdating a little) so we’ll see how this one goes. This one was all about this swim-top photoshoot that I did and even again recently did another one to go with it (you’ll see the two of them) then I’m just putting this one picture as the header and then also a featured before continue reading. Hopefully I can get better at this again I know how much I’ve posted in my life and it is a ton but as you can tell my writer’s blog kind of turned into gibberish this year. Oh well, I’m really catching up with photoshoots actually. So let’s just see.
Today I have something really cool I’ve waited a year to post. For a long time this was actually the last photoshoot I had done before a big break in between the years but I’m finally getting it down. Moodswings is similar to Save Yourself in that it was inspired by a song of a similar artist, who opened for Lights in August 2019. It includes the shirt I got from the concert actually. I got a few of them. What I really like about this outside photoshoot is that it’s another dark-outside type. Matt was the one I did this shoot with too, he took most of the pictures. So here’s this one! Sorry for the crazy order of my posts, but 2019 & 2020 went hand in hand for posting because I was trying to fill in wherever I did a photoshoot that I never posted. So the cool thing about my tiled galleries is they speak volumes, like whether or not in order. So Moodswings was an outside photoshoot of mine with another merch shirt from a concert, even.
The thing I love the most about this photoshoot is that beyond my red hair being a draw, I was really able to express myself. Maybe painting the picture & including red is sometimes the point, almost like just in this room I’ve done an almost-blonde shoot that spoke very differently about me. And I did this myself! It is definitely 2020 that I’m doing this, with a point to be throw across from August 2019 – I can’t even believe how much I have to express about this one though. Without pressure, without self-deprecation or judgement, I can post a photoshoot like this and spit it back like it’s resounding. And as for this concert tee, or this concert, which was incredible, I’m really glad to be sporting the red hair with it like Lights and her bright red hair & coordinating merchandise. The concert was incredible, so glad I did a shoot for the shirt. So at least I have this photoshoot to post! It is a long photoshoot. Haha.
I always thought there was a million different ways to wear my graphic tees/merchandise styles. I have way too many photoshoots of merchandise shirts and I’m going to go through all the posts in bulk one day and dissect them for the pictures. That’ll be rad! Read more to see the rest of this shoot.
Something I should’ve always probably done is explain both sides of my coin. Solution verses efforts, and a reflection of progress on both sides of the pursuit, like how some posts have the best groups of pictures and others are written very well! But every time there’s a loose key like “I took these pictures way too long ago/something has changed since then” or “I can barely think of what to write but once I start going I’m inspired to”. The dangers of that to me were just taking a little too long to run on a sentence. I’d rather run water right about now. This fun cherry red scalp photoshoot is a good representation of something. Whether it’s cycling or adjustments I usually end up finding a way to one of the 3 main things to do…Writing, Shooting, or Editing. Photoshoots like mine are starting to mean the world to me, I can’t believe how long it’s taken me to realize some of these things. Like even though there’s no 2020 to this post I’m probably still writing this in late 2020. But it could go anywhere! Here I’ll keep my Conscious Notes & Skid Marks here to prove something. Like how I think A Lonely Play of Cards was still almost my playlist back when I did this shoot. Or how much advice I’ve secretly taken from people about my blog or what I’ve even sent about it before I ever posted about these things. Then pictures like this don’t become stale to me actually! And advice is a small difference between “I’ve read it finally!” and how most people who don’t mind talking to me about blogging get way more interesting of chimes with me than people who don’t care. But the thing is I have plenty of people to talk to these days (finally) about my blog! Exclusive verses excluded pictures, outtakes! My favorite one in context or what I’m working on right now. My recent playlist or my favorite one of the era. Recent playlists to me are usually supposed to take your recently added music, draw shapes into titles and names, and then shuffle the playlist once it’s filled out. To create that formula. There was a point in time where I did In Star Style but that ended in like, August, and then after that I created Expression as a top playlist but it doesn’t have as many tracks as my old ones! Even all my A named playlists have over 100-200 tracks of them, respectively. But when working on a vibe of one thing it wouldn’t matter that it was mostly K.Flay who I listened around then, or at least that’s what I was thinkin’. 2019 was a great year for that. But the thing about playlists verses era is I’m really good at grinding out reasons to do anything. So I’m naming this that and just going to throw it up there.
Brainstorming – August to November 2020 Mark
Save Yourself vs. That Bitch in terms of amount; 36 to 58 just to only 19 edits
Plus Save Yourself + Display 2019, 100+s but Full Sized Solved Shoot Stuck
Full-Sized Picture Collages, One Featured Photoshoot
So the thing about being almost completely blonde was that it was rad, but not intentional. I was super glad to get this shoot actually so I’m going to hide it on the front page with the red hair shoots. Not too much to say but I’m still making sure every good shoot got a good file. Like doing my nails better lately. I only have two 2019 shoots left to post and then I’m completely up to date! So let me show you this bitch. The good thing about That Almost Blonde was that I was really able to get these pictures in before my hair was dyed red again, like how I’ve been doing it since 2018. This is one of the only photoshoots about that so I didn’t write it too in depth it’s just supposed to speak for itself. Blonde, right? This came right before Solved the Problem.
Like a slow drive that I desperately know, I hope this gives me everything I’m missing. Hippie Sabotage used to be what I called this photoshoot until I actually wanted to post it. Now I kind of am, right before Die Hard Dreamer which was better. So backdating. Under My Skin is one of my favorite songs from that guy actually. Hopefully I can be what I need until I’m ending because on a drive to me is gears churning. But wow I can really write like this weird way. Oh well! Shopping Cart Shoot!
