I love when it gets to be near to the middle of the year, time is really cool to be sitting in sometimes. Making a lot of progress on myself and my blog, I do really well for myself getting to even better places as I go through everything through the year. This year specifically has been a great one for me so far, with going to all my meetings and all regularly! I’m pretty excited about this blog post and photoshoot finally too, this is a DKNY sweat-dress I’ve had for like 6 or 7 years probably! I used to have two of them, with one being black & white and the other this one (grey & black) but I got rid of the other one years ago and I totally regret that! It hasn’t happened to me a lot that I regretted much that I’ve gotten rid of in terms of clothes over the past long time, but it was crazy that I didn’t just keep both for my blog! Finally, since like 2015 when I first had this, I finally get it into a blog post with pictures of it. I did a full face of red and orange-ish colors including products from my new Ipsy bag this month, and I love how it all ended up looking for sure. It’s been since last summer that I had to stop getting Ipsy for a while, but I finally was able to resubscribe this month and I’m so glad! I had so many products and it was good to have taken a break but I really love Ipsy so it’s great to be back with it finally. I’ll include a review in with this post for sure! And this is of course a casual dress, perfect for lazy days, but I do love it so much. I’ve been waiting so long to do the photoshoot but now that I finally have, I can wear it more often. Although, it’s the end of May so it was getting kind of hot outside recently, but I just had to pick this dress out for the second post of the month so I could have ended up shooting it this year for sure! I like how it all turned out and thanks so much for checking out this blog post. Let me know what you think and there will be more coming up next month, it’ll be good to finally get to the summertime again!Continue reading
Good afternoon to everyone checking out this blog post whenever you are, I hope your day is going good! I’ve been doing well these days, and I’m really glad I’ve finally picked up my speed with blogging a bit with another post out again. I think everything is going really well for this year, and I’m glad I’m finishing February up with this particular post, I think the photoshoot and everything turned out really great for it. For this blog post, I was able to get the shoot done yesterday and now I’m writing it today, so that’s great time to be getting it up already. For the photoshoot, I decided to shoot this cute Tokyo shirt that I got with my boyfriend from Goodwill some amount of months ago, and the tag it has on it says it’s from Forever21 actually. I think it’s an awesome long-sleeve shirt of mine, also technically a crop-top, and I’m so excited that I found it there and finally got the shoot done for it! It’s yet another one I ended up doing around my room, but I like the angles and shots I got a lot so it really works here as well. Soon enough I’ll get out and do another photoshoot with Matt again, like a few we did last year, but I’m not entirely sure when. I just like what I’ve been getting done around here, I’m pretty proud of everything in the last couple of months. I’m excited for it to finally be spring next month though! I’ve had a good winter and everything, and a good start to my new year and everything. With the momentum I’ve had going on so far this year, I’m excited to see how things will further unfold as I go, because everything’s looking like it’s heading in a good direction so far with all of the context clues and everything. I love the outfits I wear on a typical day sometimes too, so that’s something that will help me with some photoshoots later on and all. I’m pretty glad about how I’ve been doing with that too, getting out of the house and everything enough with it! Now let’s checkout this new shoot I was working on next.Continue reading
So far through this year I’ve been pretty proud of what I’ve been living up to. With my birthday in November, it’s pretty cool to turn a year older and then prepare myself for the next upcoming year. I finally turned 23 on the 15th, and I think I did really well for 2021 in all the months leading up to this one. For all of the year I kept a consistency writing on this blog (as well as on my other blogs), posting enough every month. I loved the photoshoots I did this year a lot, I think I did plenty through the spring time too, and this year was just a good requiem for me after the last couple of years. A lot of this year to me was about sobriety, which I’ve written about, and that really shaped me after a while. Once I hit the middle of the year, I finally got to a point where I was really loving my photoshoots every month, those were some of my favorites! I was just really proud of how they kept turning out. Hopefully next year I start getting into it more and posting more, but I’m making good progress as I go either way so I know I’ll be doing something good. I’m excited about my life even though it’s a lot of the same things sometimes these days, but I have this rhythm and I always really see where I’m going with it. I have this good attitude to me too and this persistence that I want to remind myself of, with my writing and creative flow. Sometimes I don’t really have that much to say I think, but when I’m even just writing in my journals and things a lot comes out that I couldn’t explain much until I started writing, but it makes so much sense. A lot of what’s inside of me I think is accessible when I point myself towards the right ideas, which I sometimes can’t express until I’m finally writing. Sometimes I start writing and it ends up sounding like I’m solving a problem as I go, and it ends up making so much sense when I get through it. One thing I’ve noticed that I’ve been leading up to the past couple of months is this energy in me that I keep wanting to express, and it’s interesting to see that evolve with me a bit the more I recognize it. That’s what I’ve been finding more and more in myself these days. So that’s a lot about me I’m finding in myself more as I go recently, but I had a pretty great birthday this time as well! I got to go shopping with my boyfriend one day and my mom another day, and I got new clothes to shoot and a couple jewelry pieces I’ll be posting about eventually too. I’m pretty excited about it, I’ve always wanted camouflage pants like this! It’ll be good to see how that goes, I still have so many outfit ideas for the next year. I really see myself these days and I know I have so much to put into my passions and things more & more, and I know I can just keep going and doing these things that I love. November was pretty good to me, and I know December will be one more post to wrap up the year, and I’m excited to see how that goes!Continue reading
I’m excited about this blog post and photoshoot, I had a lot of fun with my mom and Maren for it. Maren, my cousin, came over here to visit us last month to help us pack up our living room and kitchen, preparing for our remodel that’s finally happening. It was interesting, moving things and packing them up, and Maren worked pretty hard to help us, we we’re grateful to have her over. The two of us used to do these dance-off or music video types of videos way back in the day when we were a whole lot younger, like 2011 and before. One of the examples is on YouTube like this one, but we did a couple videos before that which I’ll eventually find (on my old laptop), and then I’ll post those on YouTube too. Anyway, so of course we had to do a photoshoot 10 years later when she comes to visit us here in Seattle again, so we went to a playground and got some good pictures. The lighting kept fluctuating so we have a few different kinds of lighting for this, but I love how the shoot turned out anyway. We all kind of took turns taking the pictures, standing on all the different playground things to play on. This was a good collaboration, I love what we did with it and how it turned out. The shoot was actually last month but I’m finally getting it up now, probably the last post I’ll do before I get my hair dyed again, so this is a good one. I’m catching up with all my shoots now too, once I get this up it’ll be a fresh slate for me to start shooting again, but I was taking a break from it for a while other than this one actually. We’ll see what comes next for the blog, but doing things like this one is always cool for me anyway, something unique that I can use to change up my perspectives. I don’t think I get too typical or repetitive with my shoots or posts, I think I’m always doing something new or good that I can use to frame myself better, but collaborations are always a unique icing for the cake that changes things up even more. They make it better for me to try with, something that speaks up differently and will never sound the same. I’m glad I’m finally all caught up with shoots this year, I’ve been behind for quite a while but I know exactly what to do next! Great news about this shoot with Maren, now let’s get into it finally.Continue reading
Good afternoon all! It’s a beautiful day this spring and I’m coming at you with yet another blog post. This one was pretty cool, I call it Elephants because I have some rad elephant leggings that I love with all my heart. I got them from Goodwill actually, a good find. Some of the comfiest leggings I have ever worn, even. I just did this shoot in my room, by myself of course. I’m getting pretty good at consistently posting and shooting. I’ve also been doing pretty well, doing a lot for myself these days. I’m excited about this! The carnelian necklace is one of my favorite necklaces, I got it from a rock store in Idaho in 2018. I’m surprised I’ve never done a photoshoot with carnelian, I checked and couldn’t even find my carnelian bracelet on anything. Oh well, I have this big long list of all the clothes I have that I need to shoot, and I work on it pretty frequently. I have so many clothes I’ve never blogged about, it’s crazy. But I’m ramping up with getting them all into photoshoots. I should shoot merch more, again, but I’ve got too many normal clothes I’m working with first. So we’ll see how that plays out, I’ve got a head full of ideas these days. The boots I’m wearing, these heeled grey boots, are from Shoedazzle. I bought them while I was in rehab, had them shipped to the place (in California). I got three pairs of shoes that time, and you’ll see them all soon in future photoshoots. That was in September 2019, for those shoes (& rehab). I’ll eventually get pictures with all of them, but for now I’m just starting out with the grey boots. Stay tuned for more soon. Let’s get into this!Continue reading
It snowed here in February and I was really inspired. There was a lot of snow to wake up to. So I got dressed and I went outside with my camera. I’m not usually so easily inspired but I was this time. I had a good flow to me. I’m excited to show this to you! My makeup was pretty great. There’s a few key things about my writing that I need to work on so this is definitely a post to practice on. But in this shoot, you could hardly tell I was wearing a silver key necklace. Oh well, I got an iPhone picture of the necklaces. The cool thing about the Ashley Tisdale shirt I was wearing is I used to have two of them, one I cut myself and sent to my friend, and the other I never cut and wore for this photoshoot. I love distressing shirts. I think soon I’ll be doing a bunch of Dolls Kill photoshoots so I’ll be keeping up on that, but after that I’ll be back to merch again. I love that I do so many merch photoshoots like this. I know the shirt isn’t the central focus of the photoshoot this time but newer photoshoots will focus better! I love this idea I have. Gear up because I have two really good photoshoot ideas for this month. We’ll see how they go. In the meantime I’ll plug in the song Snow Shovels because I thought it went perfectly with the necklaces I’m wearing. It’s from that Gouldian Finch 3 album. Listen to the song through that link. And let me get into this.Continue reading
Hey guys it’s me on Emotional Support! Remember when I did all those shoots in 2019 and didn’t post them until 2020? Or however I ended up dating & posting them? Or remember the handful of shoots I did in 2020 that I slowly released with them, like using multiple shoots per blog post? Yeah it was a good year for catching up. Today I have one of the last photoshoots to post from this year 2020, and I’m thinking of doing it old style. I might crop the pictures or use them full size. So this was from November and I’m just now getting this up here, it was with some rad pants and this Emotional Support Animal graphic tee from Rainsford which I got at an Aly&AJ concert in mid 2018. Met the girl at her merch table after her set, and it was super cool. So I got this shirt & a lighter from Rainsford that day. This is about the shirt, which I’ve cropped into a crop top by now. Emotional Support Animal is the name of Rainsford’s EP, so check that out if you want to. Such a cool shirt, it says the same thing. Now me with emotional support with myself includes a lot of breathers and some guilt-ridden “get-rid of” things and feelings. Things I could pass on, like excessive vaping, and this random sobriety block that I have with only weed. It’s weird but it’s my life. The lighting for this shoot was interesting. Tried to get it something right but it’s a left. Oh well, finally got my front page of blog posts in the right order, I think. Eventually I’ll be re-editing some of those blog posts, maybe working on them a little bit more. Who knows, when I first did this blog post it was January and I was a little behind on photoshooting, but now I’m moving this post to December because not only was this photoshoot from November 2nd, 2020 but my hair was still long with the blonde at the ends. On December 31st, I got my hair cut to my shoulders, taking off all the left over blonde & leaving my hair my natural color, shoulder length. It was kind of cool, I got the haircut because my hair was falling out for a while. That happens to me sometimes, but oh well. This shoot belongs in 2020 like when I took it, so now it is. December, even. I’ve been working hard on my blog. Let’s get into this post, should be a good one.Continue reading
In 2019 I did so much for myself and my photography, I really did. With the slowing down in 2018 up until the half (and the backdated) like It’s Not U (being one of the only posts I posted in 2019) and all the hair changes, well I’ve finally zeroed down at this point with my hair growing out and toning down… So now I’m here with my half-balayage and my room at my moms again just to be back here posting. I’ve got thousands of pictures of me at my moms, all so different, and fixing my set-up comes soon even. The biggest 2020 addition to my room was the magazine rack, and I’m back with my CD Collection as well, which was always here. So let me tell you a bit about my photography and my merchandise and how it intertwines with my style and my inspiration. One of my only regrets was doing a shoot like Liberation with Matt’s dirty mirror and then not having anything to write about with it, it being the last thing I did in 2018 for my blog. So whatever lack of connection there can’t change my ambition, I’ve seriously found a new ambition. It’s almost hard to explain but one day I just sat in my chair with my hair up, knowing that none of my extensions will fit me for a while, and got pictures of my Playboy shirt from Missguided. I don’t think I ever got pictures of that lot of clothes, something I would’ve done a couple years ago. Like a NastyGal box of clothes that I filed in my book with the order receipt, each thing on the list marked off into pictures, and I kept track. Seriously I used to not miss a thing with my blog. But inspired by Billie I recently cut the nightmare white graphic tees into a crop top and came back home to take a million pictures, not minding that I was cutting out my face. This is where I cross paths to things like CelebrityMerchBase to keep track of all those cool merch shirts I’ve gotten. I even missed that Billie concert but still got the shirts even. This post is about those two things. No wonder about Playboy Style or Billie’s. I named this Scary World! as a good one so thanks all for another Shop For Days post!Continue reading
From my dad’s old apartment being a year of my life with plenty of photoshoots, I’ve got a good start blogging again at my mom’s house. I did a bunch of photoshoots there that I still haven’t posted so even though this new editor is a pain and I don’t know how to collage it very well I’m still proud to be posting again in 2020 (and usually backdating a little) so we’ll see how this one goes. This one was all about this swim-top photoshoot that I did and even again recently did another one to go with it (you’ll see the two of them) then I’m just putting this one picture as the header and then also a featured before continue reading. Hopefully I can get better at this again I know how much I’ve posted in my life and it is a ton but as you can tell my writer’s blog kind of turned into gibberish this year. Oh well, I’m really catching up with photoshoots actually. So let’s just see.
What do I do when I get tired of all these flights of fancies? What do I do when I’m no longer living for myself, the only real reason I spent the last 19 years alive? When it gets out of hand, and when nobody knows, it can get to you to tire, make you feel like you’re just living to expire. Every word I say sounds the same & I stared blankly at this post for 9 hours with nothing to think and no words to produce and now that I’ve hit rock bottom — of the day — I’m ready to say these things in this manner. Is this a poem or am I trying to write a song or is this just me thinking from a perspective that isn’t usually available for me to dwindle with each day? Like a new snapchat filter that you only use sometimes. A door that you always lose the key to, so long that you forget what lies behind. I found the key and all I can remember is forgetting what it’s for. So come and take a walk with me, let’s sort this out, let’s organize it piece by piece until we find some motherfreakin’ peace. Let’s make the stupid kill-arettes dance in the air, waving like a red beam of give-and-bend light: I’m ready to slay this shoot, are you ready to get my point? Get ready because this was the last photoshoot I did before a series of unjust upside-down twisty-turn slides down into the bottom pit of this ‘real‘ life. Continue reading below for a poetic explanation of how uncool the night of April 12th was and how April 13th ruined my life.