There’s so many incredible things in my life that even prove their credibility, and I think I hit the jackpot there. Things can get hard sometimes but then there are mini miracles here and there that shock me and excited me and prepare me for every aspect of the unknown. It’s pretty crazy and kinda cool, but the coolest thing is, every day I face multiple fears, and the whole year of 2017 I grew through so many milestones. Such a beautiful life! Now I want to show you guys a shoot I did not too long ago, called My House Your House. Named after a song from Angus & Julia Stone’s Snow album, which this photoshoot is inspired by. Your house, my house…Maybe this is where we belong. 🙂
I wonder how many times I’m going to have to “grow up” before my eyes are really open. Just when I suspect I’ve figured something out, it’s like, surprise! And it’s a good thing! It’s like I was wearing sunglasses the whole time and forgot to take them off, making me miss details that I wasn’t ready to learn until the next time, when I was ready to see them. Strange metaphor, but it’s hardly a metaphor, more like an analogy. Either way, it’s great that I grow more and more every day. It’s great that I learn new things, it’s great when I stay humble, it’s amazing when I get stronger, it’s awesome when I find out how resilient I already am and even greater of a realization to see that I’m not done growing yet. Meaning, it’s like I have this shield I’ve built, and I think it’s a really cool shield like “wow this is much more powerful than using my arms for defense” and I get so caught up in thinking it’s just cool that things bounced off of it. Here’s the cool part, the part that you can sprinkle in your drinks in the morning to give you hope and keep you stronger. Every day that shield grows stronger, and of course things are still going to affect you, but you can choose the way it affects you. When it hits you but it hits your shield it gives you a chance to pick how to react. It gives you a chance to live for that moment, to retaliate in a beautiful way.
Show them all how strong you really are by rising above all of it. I can’t stop loving the fact that I get higher and higher but sometimes I get scared of falling. But the thing is, I’m not rising above the clouds with magical pixie dust taking me up, scaling largely above the USA, but I’m actually walking up stairs. On good days, it’s an elevator. Like when Danon surprised me for my birthday by taking me to the tallest building in the state, where we rose to level 73, and seeing how beautiful the city was really took a lot of my fear away. Around me was this sweethearted boy, people adoring the city, and a nice guy at the front desk. We were quiet but we were all in awe. And I think that that really is a great representation of what it’s like to be with someone like him and build my shield and armor but also build a catapult of LOVE, and yes him and I rise so high but I’m not scared at all. I feel safe, like this is exactly where I need to be. Being in that building there was no fear of falling, no fear of crashing from 73 floors, just seeing the beauty of the world from a level where we couldn’t be touched by them. None of the negativity, none of it could touch us, although I always seek the love wherever I can find it, and create it when I can’t. And that’s really the bottom line, that’s how we all should live, we should wake up in the mornings up high in a New York hotel or just excited in our own heads or jumping around the street because you like jumping like me, and not be scared at all of what could be below. We’re safe here, with all the amenities that come with growing into such valuable people. It’s your right as a person to grow with no fear, it’s your right to seek the love and cut off the fear, it’s your right and your strength to live as you breathe and I promise you that you will never reach a point in your life where you’re not worth that. Maybe celebrities can live in penthouses high in the sky, with all their money, and it’s probably beautiful, but honestly what’s incredibly beautiful to me is getting to know the people I love and my cat Milkshake. What’s beautiful to me is waking up after not having a nightmare, and realizing what’s to come all day. What’s beautiful to me is I’m still 73 floors high, risen above anything that shouldn’t touch me, so you could say I have my head in the clouds yet I’ve never been so coherent. I’ve never been so intuitive. I’ve never learned that I have THIS much left to learn, and I still haven’t learned a fraction of what I’m about to learn. Tomorrow, the next day, next year, and yesterday…Things to look forward to. Strength is a choice, and I know you’ve earned it.
When I first heard Lights’ song Ice in like 2009 or 2010, I fell in love. I watched the music video all the time, and totally fell in love with this beautiful creature that is Lights. But somehow she kind of fell off my radar until March 2013 when I found out she was playing an acoustic show here in Seattle so I quickly ordered her most recent album from the time (Siberia Acoustic) and fell IN LOVE with it! I loved her acoustics even more than her electro-pops! So I ordered all her discography and from then on she was (and is) on of my all-time favorites. And now I wanna talk a little bit about her album Skin&Earth which ranked as my #3 favorite album of the year 2017 (it literally won an award I made up, I’ll post about that next month) I got this cool pre-order bundle and fell in love with the album and blah blah blah…Wasn’t listening to it as much but yesterday I was trying to figure out what album to play while I got ready and shot my outfit, and I instantly knew it had to be Skin&Earth. This album brought up my spirits, I was reminded of why I love it so much, and it influenced this shoot in even some quirky ways. So a main chunk of this post is about this album and how amazing it is and it’s inspiration to me, but the other parts are some other really cool stuff including Danon taking me to the Sky View of the Columbia Center in Seattle, the tallest building on the west coast or something! But yeah there’s the September bundle of Lights merch I got that I scattered throughout this post, then there’s my Kicks photoshoot which is the like…main shoot and also inspired and broken-down by each song of this album, info on all my outfit and makeup deets, and of course wrapped up every little part with a sprinkle of Skin&Earth. By the way, this awesome black top and jeans are both from Stitchfix, sign up to get your curated box for whenever you want a fix!
Everything seems momentous and every moment seems neatly planned. It feels like everyday flows into the next, into my soul, through my actions, and back. It is amazing to have good vibes and things around you instead of you being bugged by constant negative thoughts — honestly, I didn’t know I was harnessing so much of that.
I couldn’t notice that I was being bugged all the time yet I do know notice that, does that make sense? It’s like… quieter in my head. And a lot of it has to do with my current favorite album (not including Rainbow) Tell Me You Love Me by Demi Lovato. Omg you guys… it is AMAZING! And at one point I was planning a grassy photoshoot but didn’t get around to it until a month after I had the idea, and then I was naming this shoot and of course I had to use the line of the lead single “The Grass Is Greener Under Me” as my title, and everything definitely seemed to click there, and I can promise you I really am in love with this album. Let me talk more about that, and decorate the page with the promotional shoot. Lol I’m kidding but this is great.
Once upon a time, Demi Lovato dropped a collection with athletic-wear’s uprising star, Fabletics (co-founded by Kate Hudson). I think it’s a lot of because Demi isn’t conventionally skinny but she is really fit and amazing in the gym & other athletic-type places, and so the collection featured lots of awesome Demi-related things with wordss like “Confident”, “Unbroken”, etc from her song lyrics. It was really cool, lots of t-shirts tied up and leggings with interesting patterns, and by the time I discovered this collection IT WAS ALMOST COMPLETELY sold out. AHhhh I was soooo sad! Because this is like, merch and gym clothes in the same outfit! MADE FOR ME. But later Fabletics announced that since everyone was requesting like crazy that they bring some Demi stuff back, Fabletics did one better-they dropped a SECOND Demi collection! These things are all legit merchandise because it says “Demi Fabletics Lovato” on the removable tag and on all the clothing tags. It’s so cool and they totally re-upped on their photoshoots for the collection, Demi SLAYED in all of them! I’m not sure if Demi did much designing for this collection or if it’s just her name on it, but either way, I’m SO sold.
And now, ladies and gentlemen and cats and animals, I’ll show you the 4 outfits I bought from Demi’s line! The thing about Fabletics is they sell things by the outfit, like you can buy things individually but their whole thing is to have cool gym outfits. So I bought 4 outfits and also one pair of leggings (the top was sold out :(((((( I didn’t include this in my photoshoots) and started with the first photoshoot on September 9th. A month later, I’m here ready to share it all with you. Continue reading!
The very first time I saw this trend, Kylie Jenner was rocking it. I’ll include that picture. Anyway, at first I thought it was really dumb. Then I realized it was kind of cool…Like wildfire that trend did spread, being interpreted by a million different people in infinite ways. It wasn’t until now, 4 months later, finally got my chance to fw this trend! I got a big bag of used clothing and had my mind set on re-creating this trend in my own way, so I started snip snip snipping away. Got some really controversial results, but the main one is one I call Epic.
Rest in peace Chester, much love for you. Thank you so much for changing my life as I grew into who I am, and thank you for always taking the words out of my mouth and detangling the thoughts in my head. Thank you for all of the times you were alive, and thank you for letting your influence impact my life in the best way possible. Thank you for everything that you’ve done, and for eveything that you still do as your legacy and your words live on. I have so much love for you, you really have changed my life. Linkin Park is very very important to me. This is extremely hard for me to even process…I’m in such shock.
So thankful for this band and everything they’ve done. I just wanted to look back at some of the shoots I’ve done with their merch.
I don’t think people even realize how crazy that New York trip was to me. My boring life, my lack of lust for life in my “photoshoots”, and yet I proved so many things for myself.
Okay, so first off: I was going to Teen Vogue in NY and so I had to pack up for the weekend. So the night before, I was sitting there with Ally and I realized I needed to pack my clothes for the trip. I grabbed a few gorgeous shirts, with lace and mesh and all that jazz, just because I loved them. Then I grabbed some typical bottoms, including some bold pieces…and I totally brought those red long pants with the lace halter top and how the colors match perfectly its like crazy! I didn’t try any of this on before going! It’s amazing…
So I wrote that on May 19th as a part of this Diary of a Shopping Enthusiast. Honestly what was I even talking about? Yeah the New York trip was super cool, and yes it is cool that I ended up with such great outfits even though I just grabbed a bunch of random things, but I always do that. (By the way, as I write this it’s May 31st). Heck I mean last Tuesday I had to bring 4 outfits for my headshots, and all I did was take a ton of shirts and pants and shoes and put them into a bag really quickly because I was running late. Turns out I picked SUCH great pieces! My photographer picked out outfits from the bunch of random clothes that I had, and they all turned out to be dope. One of my favorite dresses (a cute blue one) went so well with my retro-esque floral chunky sandal heel shoe things. Hahaha it looked so good, and we found a cool alley and I can’t wait to see the pictures.
Good morning world. How are you? I need to show you guys my shoots from The 1975 concert. What I wore to the concert, and how I wore the merch I got. I attended the show on April 30th, 2017 in Seattle at the WaMu Theater. One of my favorite traditions. I’ve begun to start experimenting more with my fashion, so I haven’t been shooting as much. But I wanted to show these! These shoots are called The 1975 and By Your Side!
I wish I could speak easier right now, but right now it’s so hard to try to form a thought or a sentence. It really has been oddly hard to do that these days. Blogging used to be a breeze, but now that I’ve updated my standards with myself and my posts, it doesn’t come as easily. I want to be more thorough! So now today is an interesting post, I was rollin’ and I shot this outfit, with my other new pair of Guess jeans. I think it’s a fun look, what are your thoughts? Continue reading for more pictures & words!