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The New Year

10 Monday Jan 2022

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I’m pretty excited to begin this year and lay everything out in front of me, it’ll be good to see where I get to next. As per usual I do a lot of the same things that I have been doing for the past 6 months, but these days I think my attitude is improving now too. I had some goals and things to focus on nearing the end of last year, but now I’ve settled in better and I’m more relaxed to see what’s going on for this year. In terms of what’s helped get me excited, I just have these clothing pieces and makeup items I’m excited to finally use more and incorporate into photoshoots, but also my journaling! I love my journals so much, I haven’t written in them as much as I’ve wanted to but that’s something to push myself for this year. I did sit down recently though, right at the end of the year, and did another couple of pages for my vision journal, which turned out really great. I don’t work on that as much as I’ve usually worked on my hand-written journals, but I love both and they always get me started on something to think about and everything. So that’s a focus for this year, let me get into what this photoshoot is about next! I ended up meeting a new friend at the Alano Club, which I go to for my Narcotic’s Anonymous meetings, and his name is Robert. It’s really cool to have started talking to him, especially because he makes a lot of interesting clothes and jewelry and things like that and he wanted to share some with me. So he ended up giving me this bikini, hand-crocheted two-piece set that I love with all my heart, that he made by hand. I thought it was so perfect for a shoot! It was near the end of December that he gave it to me, and it’s my first thing I’ve shot for the new year of 2022. It turned out really good, and the colors are perfect for this timing! Not to mention my blonde hair here, I’ll eventually get my hair dyed again but I actually love how it ended up blond-ing. A good look for me for the meantime. It’ll be cool to see how my hair grows more too, it grew so well in the last year! Let’s get into this photoshoot now, I love this one.

The New Year bikini photoshoot for 2022
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Twenty-Three

29 Monday Nov 2021

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So far through this year I’ve been pretty proud of what I’ve been living up to. With my birthday in November, it’s pretty cool to turn a year older and then prepare myself for the next upcoming year. I finally turned 23 on the 15th, and I think I did really well for 2021 in all the months leading up to this one. For all of the year I kept a consistency writing on this blog (as well as on my other blogs), posting enough every month. I loved the photoshoots I did this year a lot, I think I did plenty through the spring time too, and this year was just a good requiem for me after the last couple of years. A lot of this year to me was about sobriety, which I’ve written about, and that really shaped me after a while. Once I hit the middle of the year, I finally got to a point where I was really loving my photoshoots every month, those were some of my favorites! I was just really proud of how they kept turning out. Hopefully next year I start getting into it more and posting more, but I’m making good progress as I go either way so I know I’ll be doing something good. I’m excited about my life even though it’s a lot of the same things sometimes these days, but I have this rhythm and I always really see where I’m going with it. I have this good attitude to me too and this persistence that I want to remind myself of, with my writing and creative flow. Sometimes I don’t really have that much to say I think, but when I’m even just writing in my journals and things a lot comes out that I couldn’t explain much until I started writing, but it makes so much sense. A lot of what’s inside of me I think is accessible when I point myself towards the right ideas, which I sometimes can’t express until I’m finally writing. Sometimes I start writing and it ends up sounding like I’m solving a problem as I go, and it ends up making so much sense when I get through it. One thing I’ve noticed that I’ve been leading up to the past couple of months is this energy in me that I keep wanting to express, and it’s interesting to see that evolve with me a bit the more I recognize it. That’s what I’ve been finding more and more in myself these days. So that’s a lot about me I’m finding in myself more as I go recently, but I had a pretty great birthday this time as well! I got to go shopping with my boyfriend one day and my mom another day, and I got new clothes to shoot and a couple jewelry pieces I’ll be posting about eventually too. I’m pretty excited about it, I’ve always wanted camouflage pants like this! It’ll be good to see how that goes, I still have so many outfit ideas for the next year. I really see myself these days and I know I have so much to put into my passions and things more & more, and I know I can just keep going and doing these things that I love. November was pretty good to me, and I know December will be one more post to wrap up the year, and I’m excited to see how that goes!

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Convenience Fee

18 Monday Oct 2021

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One of my favorite things to do when I’m finally picking up my speed is to sit down and write. Even when I take a break from blogging for just a second to see where I’m at with everything else, I’m writing pages in a couple of my journals and trying to break down better what I have to digest. It’s like, I have a few different blogs with different styles of writing behind them, but I can’t write on them too often yet because I’m still revolving after getting sober off of alcohol & the rest of it, and my brain has had some time to settle as I go. I think about how I used to write and I really see my strides from over the years, but I’m really excited to get back to writing more and more on my blogs as I go because I will always love making this progress and seeing myself grow on here and worryjustenough.com as well. That’s of course, for more of my lifestyle blogging, but it’s been a couple months since I last blogged on there, which is interesting compared to going to NA (narcotics’ anonymous) meetings all the time now. I’ve been doing that (as well as some IOP meetings for my outpatient treatment) really consistently since July and it’s been really cool to see how everything’s changed for me since then. I’ll definitely be writing more on there later after I publish this blog post, so within the next couple of weeks, so that’ll be cool to get back to. I have a good consistency on here though, Shop For Days, that I’ve kept up with with posting this year that I’m pretty proud of, but at least once a month I get a photoshoot and blog post up here and I love where I’m getting to with them these days. I’ve actually had the concept of Convenience Fee up on my whiteboard and in my journal and stuff as an idea for me to post for a few months now too, but I just now finally got down to working on it, and it ended up being this totally perfect all-black outfit that I’ve worn in a few different sentences, like with this shirt and everything, but the boots were a perfect wrap up and even surprise to it. I found them in the corner of my closet, behind a big white bin I have in front of one of my shoe shelves, and I wasn’t even sure I still had them until I dug them out recently! You’ll see those later in the blog post, I’m glad I got these boots into the shoot this time. For now, the last thing I wanted to point out was this layered lock necklace. I got this last year actually, from Dolls Kill, and it’s pretty big and I love it a lot. It’s pretty perfect that I chose locks for this post/outfit and everything, I’ve done some posts with silver key jewelry (which I collect!) from time to time but I have hardly any locks really. I love the concept of both, I have a lot of things I relate to those that I have a bunch of and eventually I’ll do a big post on all the keys or something. I thought that for this shoot though, I could do the other side and get this big chain necklace of locks into the all-black outfit, and it seemed to balance it out perfectly. These came together really well, even if I waited for so long to get working on this concept, but I think it ended up timing out really well too. This is a good one to be doing for October I’m thinking, and I’m glad I’m here where I’m at in life as well! I feel like I always have some sort of direction or solid ground at least when I get to write or work on something like this, so I’m glad to see where I’ve been getting to creatively these days! I can make so much progress on myself and my blogs (as well as my journals) in a couple of months, so reflection will be a good one to hit upon throughout this post. Hopefully I ramp up with my content more as I go, but where I’m at is looking better finally so I like and my words and topics and ideas these days. So much I’ve worked on over the years, but I’m making such better personal progress now finally!

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Death Row

27 Friday Aug 2021

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My life has always been some combination of change and consistencies, the things that kept me balanced or taught me some skill to stay on track. Recently a lot of things have piled up, but at first I really thought it would be something I couldn’t handle or shouldn’t have to deal with. I’m stuck doing these meetings all the time, two different kinds, and I wasn’t expecting to be busy 5 days of the week every day for a while but that’s what it looks like. Something my dad was talking to me about recently was how life throws so many things at you that are unexpected but obviously this teaches you resilience and him and I both agree that we’re good at those kinds of throws from life, just knowing the ground we stand on and how stable we are through the most of it. We also talked a lot about regret this past month and it really said something to me, the way these things would pile on top of me. I’d like, go through all of it and wonder how to sit there and look back at it without it pulling my hair, really. Those two things are something I’m talking about here, but I’ve really relieved a lot of pressure in my life and in my mind by having these conversations with him. Now I love going to these meetings, with every piece of my heart, and I’m back to wearing my heels all the time and putting on my lipsticks. My outfits rock these days and this is my 4th week in a row that I’ve had something to do and somewhere to go every single day of the week. I really absolutely love where I’m at, where I’ve finally gotten into in life, and I’m just having so much fun and actually getting things out of these meetings! I love that I get out and do these things, and even if I haven’t blogged as much recently I still post every fucking month, so I’m not slacking too hard even though I’m way busier now. I feel like I really can create this direction in my life with these toolkits I have gotten from all these meetings, and I have this persistence now that I want to keep up with as I go. I’ve made a bunch of good decisions in the midst of the stupid mistakes that I’ve been throwing in there to tag the regret, but I really see what I chose in life and what good it brings me to be here at this point in time. I believe I’m the person I am because I could be, and because I want to be, every single day of my life and that helps a lot when I’m building myself. I spend a lot of time working on myself these days and I really have everything I need finally, and I’m really proud of this photoshoot! I called it Death Row after the Bebe Rexha song, because I have finally hit a point in my life this week where I really understood and just got it, what I’m doing here. Something clicked in my brain shortly after doing this shoot and I am definitely excited about my future. I see what making changes in your life does, and I feel this positive energy that I keep loving and wanting to express, so I will creatively finally. I really see why I got to this point in my life.

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Elephants

08 Thursday Apr 2021

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Good afternoon all! It’s a beautiful day this spring and I’m coming at you with yet another blog post. This one was pretty cool, I call it Elephants because I have some rad elephant leggings that I love with all my heart. I got them from Goodwill actually, a good find. Some of the comfiest leggings I have ever worn, even. I just did this shoot in my room, by myself of course. I’m getting pretty good at consistently posting and shooting. I’ve also been doing pretty well, doing a lot for myself these days. I’m excited about this! The carnelian necklace is one of my favorite necklaces, I got it from a rock store in Idaho in 2018. I’m surprised I’ve never done a photoshoot with carnelian, I checked and couldn’t even find my carnelian bracelet on anything. Oh well, I have this big long list of all the clothes I have that I need to shoot, and I work on it pretty frequently. I have so many clothes I’ve never blogged about, it’s crazy. But I’m ramping up with getting them all into photoshoots. I should shoot merch more, again, but I’ve got too many normal clothes I’m working with first. So we’ll see how that plays out, I’ve got a head full of ideas these days. The boots I’m wearing, these heeled grey boots, are from Shoedazzle. I bought them while I was in rehab, had them shipped to the place (in California). I got three pairs of shoes that time, and you’ll see them all soon in future photoshoots. That was in September 2019, for those shoes (& rehab). I’ll eventually get pictures with all of them, but for now I’m just starting out with the grey boots. Stay tuned for more soon. Let’s get into this!

Nice picture of my room here.
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Genie Atrapado

26 Friday Mar 2021

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In 2018 & 2019 I was taking some breaks from blogging. But in the midst of it I did Genie in a Bottle & Genie 2.0. Now I’m back with another Genie inspired post but it’s not capitalized like those are. I’ve also had this outfit since the spring of 2019 or so (2 years ago!) and just now finally have it shot. I’ve got a lot going on for photoshoots & posts for the year 2021 so I’m catching up. I finally did this photoshoot with this genie shirt, Rub Me The Right Way. It’s from Dolls Kill of course. I still have one more shirt from this order left to do, so that’ll be later this year. I’m ramping up with photoshoots so I should be posting a lot more these days to get these shoots up. It was fun doing this with Matt, he manned my camera this time. I love that this is my third genie shoot. I even included this genie’s bottle purse for this, plus I’m wearing the same choker the model was wearing for this shirt. That’s a cool bonus. I’m really proud of this outfit. And to piggy-back on to my last blog post, yes I still have crazy dreams, and yes this is my get-out-all-the-time blog post. Matt and I have been hanging out really doing some stuff these days, so he’s top on my list of people. Maybe I seem like I critique too much (mostly with myself, actually) but people like him remind me of where I’m at in life. I’ll definitely zero in on that a little more later in this post, because I have a bunch to say about how things are for me now. I’ve been working out a lot too so of course my dad and I are building ourselves better by the day. I really love how things are going for me these days. I’ve been granting my wishes.

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Angel Like Me

18 Monday Jan 2021

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In the many years that I’ve been blogging, I’ve had a lot to say. Now that it’s 2021 and I’ve cut my hair I’ve been excited to come back with a story. In 2015 I started blogging with a graphic tee shoot and money leggings. I still have both of those to this day and I’m now 22! I was 16 for that. I even got a few new graphic tees to do more shoots with eventually, starting with this rad blue angel one from my friend. There’s a new Coca-Cola shoot coming eventually too. It’s a different one than that OG one (I called that post Original Gangstress). I’m almost done doing graphic tees for a while too, but for now here’s Angel Like Me. Loosely inspired by a Miley Cyrus song, Angel Like You. I can’t wait to show you more this year. With the first thing I posted now near the end of the year, Emotional Support, I was just finishing up on the rest of the 2020 photoshoots I had left in stock. Now, after the last haircut that I got, I’m finally prepared to do more photoshoots, so hopefully this year can be abundant. I’m excited to see how it goes. My goal for this year is at least 10 good posts. This is basically the first of the year, in terms of a blog post. Like I said, eventually it won’t be just graphic tees but I have so many that I’m excited to do them. And for my hair, once it starts growing again I’m going to dye it to match a set of extensions. So that’s all coming up, we’ll see how long it really takes me to get there. I’ve got not much going on but blogging ahead!

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Save Yourself

20 Sunday Sep 2020

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The thing I love the most about this photoshoot is that beyond my red hair being a draw, I was really able to express myself. Maybe painting the picture & including red is sometimes the point, almost like just in this room I’ve done an almost-blonde shoot that spoke very differently about me. And I did this myself! It is definitely 2020 that I’m doing this, with a point to be throw across from August 2019 – I can’t even believe how much I have to express about this one though. Without pressure, without self-deprecation or judgement, I can post a photoshoot like this and spit it back like it’s resounding. And as for this concert tee, or this concert, which was incredible, I’m really glad to be sporting the red hair with it like Lights and her bright red hair & coordinating merchandise. The concert was incredible, so glad I did a shoot for the shirt. So at least I have this photoshoot to post! It is a long photoshoot. Haha.

I always thought there was a million different ways to wear my graphic tees/merchandise styles. I have way too many photoshoots of merchandise shirts and I’m going to go through all the posts in bulk one day and dissect them for the pictures. That’ll be rad! Read more to see the rest of this shoot.

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That Almost Bitch

17 Friday Jul 2020

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So the thing about being almost completely blonde was that it was rad, but not intentional. I was super glad to get this shoot actually so I’m going to hide it on the front page with the red hair shoots. Not too much to say but I’m still making sure every good shoot got a good file. Like doing my nails better lately. I only have two 2019 shoots left to post and then I’m completely up to date! So let me show you this bitch. The good thing about That Almost Blonde was that I was really able to get these pictures in before my hair was dyed red again, like how I’ve been doing it since 2018. This is one of the only photoshoots about that so I didn’t write it too in depth it’s just supposed to speak for itself. Blonde, right? This came right before Solved the Problem.

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On a Slow Overdrive

04 Thursday Jun 2020

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Like a slow drive that I desperately know, I hope this gives me everything I’m missing. Hippie Sabotage used to be what I called this photoshoot until I actually wanted to post it. Honestly, I see why I was going to, but that’s just not quite the right idea. Now I kind of am posting it, right before Die Hard Dreamer, which was better. So working on my old riddled queue, that has become stale but used to carry the image of passion. I really believe that with some of them. Hopefully I can be what I need until I’m over with because on a slow drive to me is gears churning. But wow I can really write like in these weird ways, or states. Either way! I’ve sure been re-editing a lot though, so that’s interesting. This is what I’d like to call this Shopping Cart Shoot! (it’s for the rather) I always liked the concept of shopping carts for Shop For Days, honestly. Thought it made sense like that, and since I had found this stray shopping cart just around back out the apartments (complex) by the ol’ 711, abandoned Hooter’s type place, and a smoke shop just down the road. This is a little bit farther out for the photoshoot than some of the other ones I did around dad’s, like the other few or so that were taken out here were good but they weren’t by that sign right there. That’s a good one, right?

A picture of me, wearing an Ariana shirt, out by that sign in the right corner
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