I’m so excited about how this photoshoot turned out, I finally put together something good like this with my extensions in and everything. I love my red hair with all my heart, it’s been red since 2018 and I’m still not done with it! Especially since I have these red extensions I want to utilize more and more as I go. I am totally good with my hair fading to blonde sometimes, but I do love getting to re-vamp and re-dye my hair back to red sometimes. This time, I ended up using Lime Crime’s red hair dye in the color Valentine. I have dyed my hair with this one before, too, like in my other blog post Solved the Problem which is from August 2019. The color ended up matching my extensions, too, but I didn’t use them as much back then. I love my red extensions, they are TestaRossa ones from Bellami in 22″ that I got that same year, bright red. I use all of them when I use them, and it turns out super rockstar I love it. The last time I ended up using my extensions in a photoshoot was this year, in January, in my photoshoot I called Stoke the Fire. I loved that outfit and everything a lot, and I love when I get to do merch, but it was even more fun putting this ‘Hackney’ outfit together and getting it to work really well in this shoot! I love getting to do more on the glam side types of photoshoots and outfits, that’s always super cool with my ‘urban glam’ style overall. I also ended up doing a slightly longer photoshoot than usual with this one, and ended up getting like 54 pictures! So that’s pretty cool this time, let’s get into the blog post! Read more to see more of the photoshoot and all as well.
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I think I’m always doing really good as I go with every day, making progress with everything I love. I’ve always been really driven and ambitious for who I am, and I love getting to step up and do something with my time or life when I get the chance. Blogging to me is always something I have done for myself since I was like 16, and I made sure to know it as a passion and everything so I could continue putting myself and my energy into it. I used to want to get up and take pictures of myself all the time, and I always had this love for style and makeup, so I ended up doing a bunch of really cool things of myself since I started as the years went on. I love that I still do this for myself, and I know I’ll get better and better sometimes too which is fun to work towards. I totally see progress even in this shoot itself, I think I did really good with the red and white colors together! Also, this was my last photoshoot I did with my faded hair again (which is like blonde) so we’ll see it re-dyed in the next photoshoot, but I loved the contrast I did with the coloring of this outfit to my hair. I think it all turned out great, and I finally got pictures of this Lana Del Rey shirt that I got near the end of May (or early June) last year in 2021. It’s a pretty white t-shirt that says, in red writing, “Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost – LDR” which is from a song from her 2021 album ‘Chemtrails Over the Country Club’ which is pretty awesome. I even also have a Chemtrails iPhone case that I love, but I didn’t include it in the photoshoot! Such a great album though, I love Lana Del Rey with all my heart. She’s one of my overall favorites most of the time which is awesome. This year has been going great so far with my creativity and doing my best to fuel it, it all comes together pretty well and I’m glad about that. I’ve also been pretty busy this month as well, in the last week of mine I went to my 2022 family reunion the day after I did this photoshoot! It was totally cool, we all went camping together and I loved it. Next I had a concert on Thursday (which was Halsey, #74 that you can find on this page!) and then a meeting Friday etc., but I’m finally done with everything and just writing this today. This week should be pretty good too, just more of the usual of like meetings and stuff. I’m totally glad about everything though, I think things are ending up in a good place most of the time and I really love how I keep moving forward all the time. Continuing reading for more next up, collages & more as well!
‘Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost – LDR’ White Merch T-Shirt from 2021Continue reading →
I love when it gets to be near to the middle of the year, time is really cool to be sitting in sometimes. Making a lot of progress on myself and my blog, I do really well for myself getting to even better places as I go through everything through the year. This year specifically has been a great one for me so far, with going to all my meetings and all regularly! I’m pretty excited about this blog post and photoshoot finally too, this is a DKNY sweat-dress I’ve had for like 6 or 7 years probably! I used to have two of them, with one being black & white and the other this one (grey & black) but I got rid of the other one years ago and I totally regret that! It hasn’t happened to me a lot that I regretted much that I’ve gotten rid of in terms of clothes over the past long time, but it was crazy that I didn’t just keep both for my blog! Finally, since like 2015 when I first had this, I finally get it into a blog post with pictures of it. I did a full face of red and orange-ish colors including products from my new Ipsy bag this month, and I love how it all ended up looking for sure. It’s been since last summer that I had to stop getting Ipsy for a while, but I finally was able to resubscribe this month and I’m so glad! I had so many products and it was good to have taken a break but I really love Ipsy so it’s great to be back with it finally. I’ll include a review in with this post for sure! And this is of course a casual dress, perfect for lazy days, but I do love it so much. I’ve been waiting so long to do the photoshoot but now that I finally have, I can wear it more often. Although, it’s the end of May so it was getting kind of hot outside recently, but I just had to pick this dress out for the second post of the month so I could have ended up shooting it this year for sure! I like how it all turned out and thanks so much for checking out this blog post. Let me know what you think and there will be more coming up next month, it’ll be good to finally get to the summertime again!
I think I’ve been doing things right recently, with my normal pacing of everything I have to do and what I focus myself on. I even have been doing better about giving myself time for things too, and preparing for other things to come and making sure I do everything I need to do from here on out. I’ve spent a bunch of time and energy thinking about that, and I’m just glad about where I’ve gotten to with all of my efforts. Everything I have in life is enough for me, and I still always find more ways to fill my cup and acknowledge & appreciate everything on my path and around me. I’m pretty grateful for all that I have and I love the way I’ve been breaking out of myself sometimes to find other things to focus my time and thought on, and I just really appreciate the way things have been working out for me. I know I’m going to continue making progress with everything that I do, and I also love how I’ve been looking at everything a little differently in this past month as I go. I appreciate my boyfriend being in my life as well, and I’m so glad we finally went out and did half a photoshoot together for this post! I got all dressed and ready to do a photoshoot on Monday and spontaneously asked him to take some pictures of me in town, and I was glad he was totally up for that. It’s been a while since we’ve done any pictures together, the last time we got any was downtown in Seattle after a concert for my Euphoria blog post! So that’s pretty cool that him and I finally got to do that again together. I love my pink dress outfit that I did for this post, I got the dress for my birthday last year in November from a small store in the mall called Canal St.! I loved doing pink makeup this time as well, pink makeup is sometimes one of my favorites for sure. Anyway, a lot in my life is usually the same consistently by the time I have another photoshoot, but my outlook keeps changing and I keep appreciating things differently and it’s amazing. Thanks for checking out this blog post, read more!
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I’m so proud of how far I’ve gotten with everything I have this year, always keeping up with everything I want to be doing. So far I’m a little busier than I was expecting myself to be, making sure I keep pushing forward and keeping track of everything I have as I go. It’s still a lot of the same stuff as I normally have been doing with my life, but I still love so much that I have to show for recently, like my photoshoots with how I’ve been going with them. I’m definitely keeping up with a couple posts this month all month, and I still have so many ideas of what to do with what’s next and upcoming for future posts and outfits. This outfit is all black and white but mostly black, and it consists of a few key outfit pieces I had that I wanted to get into a photoshoot, and I ended up putting all of them together! I love when I have multiple pieces of clothing written down and can get like 2+ of them in an outfit successfully to get more done at once. I’m sure that eventually I’ll get outside and go do more to shoot somewhere new or do something else that’s cool with my life, but I still love all the things I do with my time and I’m always moving forward with all of it, or at least something. Meetings are still an awesome place to go to show off an outfit, at least a couple times a week, but that’s still the main thing I leave the house to do! Other than that I get to get out with my boyfriend once or twice a week, and eventually him and I will get to do more together too but it’s one thing at a time sometimes these days. I’m still totally grateful for everything I have though, and I love what I’ve been doing. This has been a good season so far, I can’t believe it’s already about to be May. Things should be so cool coming up to the summertime and up until then, we’ll see which outfits I end up putting together! Also, I really love that I ended up naming this shoot and blog post after a song, it was a good idea for one. It’s called All I Do, (which I’ll mention more about later) and all I do is blog and do my meetings + work on things around my room. I talk about that enough for sure, but yeah it is pretty perfect for me right now! I can’t wait to see what’s next, I’m really doing good with everything as I go.
The springtime is sometimes an awesome time for me with everything in the air smelling amazing finally and me finally feeling like I have another new season, which is cool and different from the summertime. They’re both different significant to me but I really appreciate when it’s finally a new season like this one, especially with everything that’s going on for me these days. This is turning out to be a promising year, and I’m so glad with everything I’ve been into since starting my outpatient treatment (for addiction) since last year in the summer (mid-July), and also everything I’ve been doing since I turned 23 in November. I, in addition to the meetings I’ve been going to and photoshoots I’ve been doing, have also been to a lot of concerts in the last half of a year (or since August) or so which has also been an awesome part of my life that I’ve finally been able to come back to since the last few years or more. I’m really glad at to where I’m at and what places I’ve gotten to mentally, and I think I’m making good progress on myself and my life everywhere possible as I go. Plus, I’ve also done really well since being back with my boyfriend (since last June actually, but we first got together in 2018) so that’s also still happening in my life! I’m pretty proud as to how everything’s turned out. Now in terms of this outfit, this kind of happened spontaneously with this Abbey Dawn brand ‘Rebel’ t-shirt (designed by Avril Lavigne in 2015) that I put together with a flag on it that matched my jeans. You can find the #merchstyle blog post for this shirt in particular on my website CelebrityMerchBase.com right here as well, featuring the same photoshoot!. I will remember to shoot my merchandise more, but this totally counts and I’m glad I put this together for this photoshoot this time. The last time I mentioned this t-shirt, it was around the same time in April but in 2016, and I wore it in some iPhone pictures with my ex-girlfriend for a blog post called Springtime Spunk. After so long I finally actually got the picture in a shoot like this, and I think it turned out awesome. In the past while I’ve also really been loving my makeup, as of lately still, and I’ve been doing really well with it all year too so I just really appreciate that passion of mine too and I’m glad I can always tie it in well to my photoshoots, and I keep good lists of all my makeup I do to my shoots so that’ll be in here later as well. Thanks so much for reading, ‘read more’ to see the rest of it!
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I’m pretty excited to begin this year and lay everything out in front of me, it’ll be good to see where I get to next. As per usual I do a lot of the same things that I have been doing for the past 6 months, but these days I think my attitude is improving now too. I had some goals and things to focus on nearing the end of last year, but now I’ve settled in better and I’m more relaxed to see what’s going on for this year. In terms of what’s helped get me excited, I just have these clothing pieces and makeup items I’m excited to finally use more and incorporate into photoshoots, but also my journaling! I love my journals so much, I haven’t written in them as much as I’ve wanted to but that’s something to push myself for this year. I did sit down recently though, right at the end of the year, and did another couple of pages for my vision journal, which turned out really great. I don’t work on that as much as I’ve usually worked on my hand-written journals, but I love both and they always get me started on something to think about and everything. So that’s a focus for this year, let me get into what this photoshoot is about next! I ended up meeting a new friend at the Alano Club, which I go to for my Narcotic’s Anonymous meetings, and his name is Robert. It’s really cool to have started talking to him, especially because he makes a lot of interesting clothes and jewelry and things like that and he wanted to share some with me. So he ended up giving me this bikini, hand-crocheted two-piece set that I love with all my heart, that he made by hand. I thought it was so perfect for a shoot! It was near the end of December that he gave it to me, and it’s my first thing I’ve shot for the new year of 2022. It turned out really good, and the colors are perfect for this timing! Not to mention my blonde hair here, I’ll eventually get my hair dyed again but I actually love how it ended up blond-ing. A good look for me for the meantime. It’ll be cool to see how my hair grows more too, it grew so well in the last year! Let’s get into this photoshoot now, I love this one.
So far through this year I’ve been pretty proud of what I’ve been living up to. With my birthday in November, it’s pretty cool to turn a year older and then prepare myself for the next upcoming year. I finally turned 23 on the 15th, and I think I did really well for 2021 in all the months leading up to this one. For all of the year I kept a consistency writing on this blog (as well as on my other blogs), posting enough every month. I loved the photoshoots I did this year a lot, I think I did plenty through the spring time too, and this year was just a good requiem for me after the last couple of years. A lot of this year to me was about sobriety, which I’ve written about, and that really shaped me after a while. Once I hit the middle of the year, I finally got to a point where I was really loving my photoshoots every month, those were some of my favorites! I was just really proud of how they kept turning out. Hopefully next year I start getting into it more and posting more, but I’m making good progress as I go either way so I know I’ll be doing something good. I’m excited about my life even though it’s a lot of the same things sometimes these days, but I have this rhythm and I always really see where I’m going with it. I have this good attitude to me too and this persistence that I want to remind myself of, with my writing and creative flow. Sometimes I don’t really have that much to say I think, but when I’m even just writing in my journals and things a lot comes out that I couldn’t explain much until I started writing, but it makes so much sense. A lot of what’s inside of me I think is accessible when I point myself towards the right ideas, which I sometimes can’t express until I’m finally writing. Sometimes I start writing and it ends up sounding like I’m solving a problem as I go, and it ends up making so much sense when I get through it. One thing I’ve noticed that I’ve been leading up to the past couple of months is this energy in me that I keep wanting to express, and it’s interesting to see that evolve with me a bit the more I recognize it. That’s what I’ve been finding more and more in myself these days. So that’s a lot about me I’m finding in myself more as I go recently, but I had a pretty great birthday this time as well! I got to go shopping with my boyfriend one day and my mom another day, and I got new clothes to shoot and a couple jewelry pieces I’ll be posting about eventually too. I’m pretty excited about it, I’ve always wanted camouflage pants like this! It’ll be good to see how that goes, I still have so many outfit ideas for the next year. I really see myself these days and I know I have so much to put into my passions and things more & more, and I know I can just keep going and doing these things that I love. November was pretty good to me, and I know December will be one more post to wrap up the year, and I’m excited to see how that goes!
One of my favorite things to do when I’m finally picking up my speed is to sit down and write. Even when I take a break from blogging for just a second to see where I’m at with everything else, I’m writing pages in a couple of my journals and trying to break down better what I have to digest. It’s like, I have a few different blogs with different styles of writing behind them, but I can’t write on them too often yet because I’m still revolving after getting sober off of alcohol & the rest of it, and my brain has had some time to settle as I go. I think about how I used to write and I really see my strides from over the years, but I’m really excited to get back to writing more and more on my blogs as I go because I will always love making this progress and seeing myself grow on here and worryjustenough.com as well. That’s of course, for more of my lifestyle blogging, but it’s been a couple months since I last blogged on there, which is interesting compared to going to NA (narcotics’ anonymous) meetings all the time now. I’ve been doing that (as well as some IOP meetings for my outpatient treatment) really consistently since July and it’s been really cool to see how everything’s changed for me since then. I’ll definitely be writing more on there later after I publish this blog post, so within the next couple of weeks, so that’ll be cool to get back to. I have a good consistency on here though, Shop For Days, that I’ve kept up with with posting this year that I’m pretty proud of, but at least once a month I get a photoshoot and blog post up here and I love where I’m getting to with them these days. I’ve actually had the concept of Convenience Fee up on my whiteboard and in my journal and stuff as an idea for me to post for a few months now too, but I just now finally got down to working on it, and it ended up being this totally perfect all-black outfit that I’ve worn in a few different sentences, like with this shirt and everything, but the boots were a perfect wrap up and even surprise to it. I found them in the corner of my closet, behind a big white bin I have in front of one of my shoe shelves, and I wasn’t even sure I still had them until I dug them out recently! You’ll see those later in the blog post, I’m glad I got these boots into the shoot this time. For now, the last thing I wanted to point out was this layered lock necklace. I got this last year actually, from Dolls Kill, and it’s pretty big and I love it a lot. It’s pretty perfect that I chose locks for this post/outfit and everything, I’ve done some posts with silver key jewelry (which I collect!) from time to time but I have hardly any locks really. I love the concept of both, I have a lot of things I relate to those that I have a bunch of and eventually I’ll do a big post on all the keys or something. I thought that for this shoot though, I could do the other side and get this big chain necklace of locks into the all-black outfit, and it seemed to balance it out perfectly. These came together really well, even if I waited for so long to get working on this concept, but I think it ended up timing out really well too. This is a good one to be doing for October I’m thinking, and I’m glad I’m here where I’m at in life as well! I feel like I always have some sort of direction or solid ground at least when I get to write or work on something like this, so I’m glad to see where I’ve been getting to creatively these days! I can make so much progress on myself and my blogs (as well as my journals) in a couple of months, so reflection will be a good one to hit upon throughout this post. Hopefully I ramp up with my content more as I go, but where I’m at is looking better finally so I like and my words and topics and ideas these days. So much I’ve worked on over the years, but I’m making such better personal progress now finally!
My life has always been some combination of change and consistencies, the things that kept me balanced or taught me some skill to stay on track. Recently a lot of things have piled up, but at first I really thought it would be something I couldn’t handle or shouldn’t have to deal with. I’m stuck doing these meetings all the time, two different kinds, and I wasn’t expecting to be busy 5 days of the week every day for a while but that’s what it looks like. Something my dad was talking to me about recently was how life throws so many things at you that are unexpected but obviously this teaches you resilience and him and I both agree that we’re good at those kinds of throws from life, just knowing the ground we stand on and how stable we are through the most of it. We also talked a lot about regret this past month and it really said something to me, the way these things would pile on top of me. I’d like, go through all of it and wonder how to sit there and look back at it without it pulling my hair, really. Those two things are something I’m talking about here, but I’ve really relieved a lot of pressure in my life and in my mind by having these conversations with him. Now I love going to these meetings, with every piece of my heart, and I’m back to wearing my heels all the time and putting on my lipsticks. My outfits rock these days and this is my 4th week in a row that I’ve had something to do and somewhere to go every single day of the week. I really absolutely love where I’m at, where I’ve finally gotten into in life, and I’m just having so much fun and actually getting things out of these meetings! I love that I get out and do these things, and even if I haven’t blogged as much recently I still post every fucking month, so I’m not slacking too hard even though I’m way busier now. I feel like I really can create this direction in my life with these toolkits I have gotten from all these meetings, and I have this persistence now that I want to keep up with as I go. I’ve made a bunch of good decisions in the midst of the stupid mistakes that I’ve been throwing in there to tag the regret, but I really see what I chose in life and what good it brings me to be here at this point in time. I believe I’m the person I am because I could be, and because I want to be, every single day of my life and that helps a lot when I’m building myself. I spend a lot of time working on myself these days and I really have everything I need finally, and I’m really proud of this photoshoot! I called it Death Row after the Bebe Rexha song, because I have finally hit a point in my life this week where I really understood and just got it, what I’m doing here. Something clicked in my brain shortly after doing this shoot and I am definitely excited about my future. I see what making changes in your life does, and I feel this positive energy that I keep loving and wanting to express, so I will creatively finally. I really see why I got to this point in my life.
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