So I’ve been pretty glad about how most things have been going these days, I think I really see things better nowadays than before. It’s July already, and that’s so crazy! This month is my one-year sober month from alcohol & whatever else, at the least. I’m pretty proud about that, as I’ve mentioned a bunch of times before I’m in an outpatient program and I go to meetings all the time. I pretty much just had to do this for court, but I ended up totally loving it and seeing some actual progress from myself from all of it, and I’m pretty thankful. I do better with a lot of aspects in my life these days, and I feel sooo much less lost than I used to last year before I went into this. It didn’t seem like that big of a deal for me, but it might as well have been a big change for me and everything. I’m excited I finally got around to this outfit I shot this week too, I bought this bralette in 2019 for a photoshoot and got around to it this week finally! That’s pretty cool, I accomplish a lot with my consistencies of blogging and all that these days. I mark so many outfit pieces and ideas off my big long whiteboard list and I do it in great timing and everything. Outfits like this are fun sometimes too, I have some other cool things coming up too. I am proud of everything though, I see why I love everything going on so much. It’s been a long year and sometimes I wear really cute outfits to meetings and stuff and it’s awesome to have something to do every week and to get to be so consistent with my makeup and everything, treating it all like an opportunity to do all that for myself. I really love getting to do that, I always keep up on doing my makeup now because it is sometimes my favorite thing to do! I use all my products, too, and I’m getting better at cycling through them. I see progress in everything with me, I think it’s so good I got to this point in life and I’m really doing well for myself. I wonder what’ll happen next, it’s good that it’s July though, but this year went by pretty fast. That’s crazy since I was completely sober, I thought it would take longer but I just flew through the year and did so well in most of my aspects. I’m so excited to keep moving forward and do more with my time, read more!Continue reading
I’m so excited about how this photoshoot turned out, I finally put together something good like this with my extensions in and everything. I love my red hair with all my heart, it’s been red since 2018 and I’m still not done with it! Especially since I have these red extensions I want to utilize more and more as I go. I am totally good with my hair fading to blonde sometimes, but I do love getting to re-vamp and re-dye my hair back to red sometimes. This time, I ended up using Lime Crime’s red hair dye in the color Valentine. I have dyed my hair with this one before, too, like in my other blog post Solved the Problem which is from August 2019. The color ended up matching my extensions, too, but I didn’t use them as much back then. I love my red extensions, they are TestaRossa ones from Bellami in 22″ that I got that same year, bright red. I use all of them when I use them, and it turns out super rockstar I love it. The last time I ended up using my extensions in a photoshoot was this year, in January, in my photoshoot I called Stoke the Fire. I loved that outfit and everything a lot, and I love when I get to do merch, but it was even more fun putting this ‘Hackney’ outfit together and getting it to work really well in this shoot! I love getting to do more on the glam side types of photoshoots and outfits, that’s always super cool with my ‘urban glam’ style overall. I also ended up doing a slightly longer photoshoot than usual with this one, and ended up getting like 54 pictures! So that’s pretty cool this time, let’s get into the blog post! Read more to see more of the photoshoot and all as well.Continue reading
Something I should’ve always probably done is explain both sides of my coin. Solution verses efforts, and a reflection of progress on both sides of the pursuit, like how some posts have the best groups of pictures and others are written very well! But every time there’s a loose key like “I took these pictures way too long ago/something has changed since then” or “I can barely think of what to write but once I start going I’m inspired to”. The dangers of that to me were just taking a little too long to run on a sentence. I’d rather run water right about now. This fun cherry red scalp photoshoot is a good representation of something. Whether it’s cycling or adjustments I usually end up finding a way to one of the 3 main things to do…Writing, Shooting, or Editing. Photoshoots like mine are starting to mean the world to me, I can’t believe how long it’s taken me to realize some of these things. Like even though there’s no 2020 to this post I’m probably still writing this in late 2020. But it could go anywhere! Here I’ll keep my Conscious Notes & Skid Marks here to prove something. Like how I think A Lonely Play of Cards was still almost my playlist back when I did this shoot. Or how much advice I’ve secretly taken from people about my blog or what I’ve even sent about it before I ever posted about these things. Then pictures like this don’t become stale to me actually! And advice is a small difference between “I’ve read it finally!” and how most people who don’t mind talking to me about blogging get way more interesting of chimes with me than people who don’t care. But the thing is I have plenty of people to talk to these days (finally) about my blog! Exclusive verses excluded pictures, outtakes! My favorite one in context or what I’m working on right now. My recent playlist or my favorite one of the era. Recent playlists to me are usually supposed to take your recently added music, draw shapes into titles and names, and then shuffle the playlist once it’s filled out. To create that formula. There was a point in time where I did In Star Style but that ended in like, August, and then after that I created Expression as a top playlist but it doesn’t have as many tracks as my old ones! Even all my A named playlists have over 100-200 tracks of them, respectively. But when working on a vibe of one thing it wouldn’t matter that it was mostly K.Flay who I listened around then, or at least that’s what I was thinkin’. 2019 was a great year for that. But the thing about playlists verses era is I’m really good at grinding out reasons to do anything. So I’m naming this that and just going to throw it up there.
Brainstorming – August to November 2020 Mark
Save Yourself vs. That Bitch in terms of amount; 36 to 58 just to only 19 edits
Plus Save Yourself + Display 2019, 100+s but Full Sized Solved Shoot Stuck
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Welcome again to another Miss Understood! Missy was a post I did from this one Idaho shoot and so I was going to file this one back too because it’s old but also featured Matt. So he was wondering after I posted the last one when I was going to get to these ones. I finally am actually, totally just with this shoot I did a little earlier that year. To do it justice it’s finally just one solo shoot, so Miss Understood is a good one finally! I’m finally getting these down. The dress/skirt shirt outfit is from Dolls Kill along with the earrings. I’m definitely going to do another shoot of this same outfit some other time so hopefully people get to seeing this enough for input.Continue reading
Hey everyone. It’s insane that I haven’t posted since the end of July. At that point is when I first hung out with Matt the night after getting home from my Idaho trip, and that was pretty insane. Because I basically walked into his place and then bam, from then on out we were always together and consuming eachother. We got kicked out of his apartment and we woke up one day at my dads to find out we couldn’t go back there, so surprise! We had nowhere to live except with my dad. We would sit in my room, doing nothing doing everything, feeding eachother to keep us alive and also tearing each other down in every whirlwind of dialogue. Does this sound like it’s getting personal? It’s so factually real and has been my life every month since August until January, and then half of February. I’m not saying it’s over or that we’re still together. I’m saying I’m sitting in my room alone getting everything done that’s months overdue, and I’m starting to breathe. We can love people so hard but if it’s toxic with no breathing room, it will blow up. It always does. I need space to be me, and yet despite this intro paragraph depicting my graphic hiatus, this blog post will be about me, the genie in the bottle, inspired and aspiring to be me, from the last blogshoot that I never posted to the newest one I just took. Genie in a Bottle & Genie 2.0, inspired from yet again the genie concept.Continue reading
Welcome to the greatest show, the greatest show you’ve ever seen before — this post is the new era. THE new era. The red hair, balayage like Christina 2001. Labret piercing like Xtina 2002. Goodass friends. Cute little models for me this time. Feminism. Loneliness? What comes with a new era… what comes with a new revolution. The way we revolt and the weapons we use. The way we aim and the game we play when we’re ready to slay. We’re girls, take a deep breath and say it loud. CAN’T HOLD US DOWN. ~ conceptually inspired by the 2002 song by Christina Aguilera.
“So. What am I not supposed to, have an opinion? Should I be quiet to speak ’cause I’m a woman? Call me a BITCH ’cause I speak what’s on my mind, when it’s easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled. (((::”…. to be continued press de buttonn.
Good afternoon everyone! I haven’t been blogging much this month, things have been so insanely hectic, but I have a lot of projects lined up and I promise at least a couple new posts next week and the weeks after that etc. I have good ideas. But today, I finally get to blog about this photoshoot I did with my lovely friend Jenna, which at first was hard for me to come up with a name for but then I remembered how Harry Styles always reminds me of her because we both love him & so naturally we’re just both Sweet Creatures. It’s pretty accurate for the photoshoot too, especially with the grayscale sort of formation. I can’t wait for the next shoot I get to do with her because I have sooo many ideas. Such a fun photoshoot/glam collaboration. Let’s get into it! Continue reading….
Here it is, the last day of 2017. This is definitely pretty insane, I remember writing in January about how I know this year could be awesome, and man was I right. It was such an incredible journey and awakening for me as a person and in my growth. Today I want to create one final post for you guys for 2017 to go out with a bang, to represent my second FAVORITE album of the entire year, Tell Me You Love Me by Demi Lovato. I already did posts around my first and third favorite albums and I’ll link them. Now is time to tell you why you should tell Demi you love her. I did two shoots for this theme, one I named Sorry Not Sorry after her first single, and it was SUCH a fun shoot!! The second is named after the album title with the shirt/only merch I’ve gotten from the era so far. There will be more, there’s always more. 🙂
There’s so many incredible things in my life that even prove their credibility, and I think I hit the jackpot there. Things can get hard sometimes but then there are mini miracles here and there that shock me and excited me and prepare me for every aspect of the unknown. It’s pretty crazy and kinda cool, but the coolest thing is, every day I face multiple fears, and the whole year of 2017 I grew through so many milestones. Such a beautiful life! Now I want to show you guys a shoot I did not too long ago, called My House Your House. Named after a song from Angus & Julia Stone’s Snow album, which this photoshoot is inspired by. Your house, my house…Maybe this is where we belong. 🙂
A month ago, I was sooo on a roll with blog posts. November was awesome for me and my blog and I was not only posting frequently, but thoroughly, and quality-ily. Quailityishful. So anyway then December everything started getting busy and crazy, however I FINALLY got around to editing these two shoots that I did (there was like a trillion pics to edit) and so now I can totally actually begin this journey that is Culture Shock, which is a half-formed idea in my head that’s about to florish. It’s derived of two equal parts, My Prerogative and Can’t Pin Me Down. Let’s see how I grow, live, create, slay and laugh at myself. After finishing this I’m actually extremely proud, and expression is best served passionately.