Hey hey. I’ve come here today at 6am after getting like a couple of crappy hours of sleep earlier buuut it’s not like I could sleep now. My head has hurt eternally. Here I am NOT to complain, I actually have better things to talk about. This past month has been pretty crazy and a weird spin of events where all of the sudden I’m on the other side of the mirror, but it’s a good thing. I’m pretty sure I was supposed to be here the whole time, not on that other side which was just a vision of something that I could’ve seen be my life. But it wasn’t my life. That was never really me, as much as I was 2u947827987917491% convinced it was me. Yes I know there’s a u in there and I’m not complaining it makes sense. Lol. It wasn’t me in some aspects, and it broke me down in most of the rest. And then my eyes opened. We sobbed by a car and she opened my eyes. She made me realized I deserve so much better with how my life plays out and how people directly treat me, and it’s crazy that it became such a war around me just for me to withdraw myself from a situation. And I guess that’s the prelude to how she birthed the powerful song, “you dont know”.
If you know me at all, then you know it isn’t uncommon for me to isolate time periods in my life and call each of them a “new era” as each new chapter unfolds. In my journal blog I have an entire category just for “new eras”, but I haven’t talked much about it on here. The only example I have is my “Selfie Sunday, The New Way” blog post from a while back. I actually discovered how to utilize my camera and I was pretty excited about it, so I did some random photoshoot using the new format I had formulated. This began a whole new era for this blog because from then on my photoshoots actually became good quality. But you know, with the way life events shift, I really think today marks the start of the newest era. I feel like I’m really blossoming into everything I’ve always wanted to be, and everything in my life is falling together beautifully. My girlfriend, my classes, my acting/modeling, my family, and I’m coming up pretty close to November 15th which is my 18th birthday. The most liberating of all days. So, I did this photoshoot a while ago but I thought it was perfect for this post, for a lot of reasons. Continue reading to find out more.
Aloha, what a beautiful day! Lately I’ve really been feeling the writing bug and I’ve wanted to write and photoshoot often. I can’t believe what a crazy month that it’s been so far, let alone how crazy of a year it’s been. I haven’t gotten a new shipment of clothes yet so I haven’t really had many outfits to do but I thought I’d post this update to talk all about what I’ve been buying and what I’m wanting to buy!
I got this Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy shirt and I adore it! I adore the show.
I’m so obsessed with this Grim Adventures graphic tee I found online. Boring shorts and boring nails, but really loving that top. Normally I don’t like to wear graphic tees. I’m planning some orders for Nasty Gal. I got a couple cute new shirts on the way that will be her Tuesday. But I need to decide what to buy! I definitely want to order from Nasty Gal, but any suggestions as to what?
I always miss blogging! The other day I randomly decided to set up my camera and have a photoshoot, even though I wasn’t necessarily wearing anything new. But I missed photoshoots so bad and this is what came out of that.
I call this shoot the Revival shoot. I’m reviving myself, coming back to life for this post and hopefully more posts in the future! Here’s how the shoot played out. Read more for deets.
It’s Shop For Days/ishopfordays.com ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY! Holy crap!
One year ago today I created this blog and posted my first post (the post wasn’t live until 2/9/2015 but I did post it on the 8th) and I’m really, really proud of myself for what I’ve done here. From like March-November 2015 I didn’t really post much at all, but when I actually started posting I was able to start doing everything I dreamed I would do on this blog. I even got my own domain a couple months ago so it’s truly been an investment of time and passion and it’s like a dream come true. I honestly still don’t have many views or likes etc, but that’s not important. It is so hard for me to even get out of bed some days, but in the past few months I’ve posted diligently in spite of that, and looking back through all these posts and seeing myself grow as a blogger and heal as a person is honestly priceless. This is like a journal to me. I need a creative outlet (everybody does!) so this became mine; my absolute love and drive for shopping actually sprouted into a representation of my enthusism and I’m always proud to say I have my words and my passion and my shopping life documented in a scrapbook-esque way. It’s like my baby book, I finally created this blog after wanting to for months in February 2015, and by the winter time I really made it mine. I made it something that mattered to me. I feel loaded with happiness when I take what I do everyday (shopping/creating outfits/writing) and seriously create something that is so…me. Something very Abby-esque. Something I’m proud of, even if nobody sees it.
So on this day, I look back through all my photoshoots. The bad ones, the horrible lighting, the ones I take a lot of pride in, how my makeup was bad sometimes, how I actually created an outfit I was impressed with… I’ve grown. Honestly, people can make fun of me all they want for blogging about shopping, but I think I have more passion in my pinky than they would have even if they cloned themselves 46 times and added up the passion altogether. And if they are passionate, how do they not understand? It doesn’t matter either way, it just makes me feel bad for them. Maybe they think I’m an oddball or “conceited” but that’s okay. Because when I look in the mirror I see sparks in my eyes and I see potential. I see things that keep me going each and every day. I see a reason to not only live or move but to thrive and prosper. I find so much joy in this and I’ve found out so much about myself and so many things just by being here and creating my story. It’s only the story of part of my life, yet it’s already gained so much momentum and I know it’ll take me far. Even if it just takes me to a dead end where I can sit on the floor with my laptop and be allowed to pour my heart out, that’s enough to keep me content for ions.
Sorry this was so long, but I’m proud and happy. Now, who wants to see the original post? It’s appropriately called Original Gangstress, hahaha. Maybe it’s silly or just flat out bad or juvinile or whatever, but this is the post that started it all and I’m not going to alter it’s history by rewording it or anything.
Here’s a selfie I took right before I walked outside to do that photoshoot. I can’t believe this was a year ago. But there I was, creating my first post. Creating history out of raw passion. Thank you to everyone who has read/been reading my blog at any point of the last year. My words will always be flowing somewhere in this world. Let’s just hope they continue to end up here for a little longer. 🙂
Hello! Just an update here, since I haven’t blogged in a number of days. I have a LOT of things coming in so I’ll be busy with posts this week! I also started using the flash on my camera instead of my lamp light thing because I got the flash to work correctly again, so here’s a sample of the lighting for my next posts.
Surprise! I’m back, at least I think I am lol, and I’ve got something planned for this blog! 12 days of Christmas. Everyday from tomorrow (12/14) until Christmas Day I’ll be posting some sort of item or whatever that is Christmasy, and also a favorite of mine for the winter/Christmas time. The featured image of this post is a sneak peek of some things coming up. Get ready for tomorrow!