July 2018 was crazy but kinda cool. I was a living angel experiencing the life of hard drugs and losing myself, only finding solace in the fact that I was progressing and not just accepting the demise. Still though, my family was going to Idaho later in the month and I had decided the week before that I was going to try to go. That meant needing to get sober in time for it. So I stopped the heroin and the meth, struggled with my own instability and decided to go forward – hard, to get ready enough to survive the trip, and the best part is, even though it was the hardest week of my life (and I never felt more misunderstood and like I was losing myself) the instant that I got home, there was like one hour of getting ready and then I went to go hangout with Matt for the first time by ourselves. I stayed the night with him that night instead of staying at my house and then boom we were together for like, ever. Lol. So that’s how all that started. I’m behind on a lot of old photo shoots but thought I’d do this concept post because I wanted to go deeper on how Matt pretty much saved me from myself and how all that started to begin with. So this is the Missy Understood photoshoot that I did in Idaho, plus the pictures from the family reunion + a short story on how Matt & I fell together. Cue dramatic music. Lol. Also included: of course I picked a song that I did for the Idaho photoshoot but I also have created a conceptual-based playlist called Miss Understood, Hitlist that I’m transferring onto YouTube. And there’s about 5 people that mean the world to me right now as I’m diving into sobriety once again. And this time I’m excited. My vision board journal, my new love of music videos and music DVDs, the rearranging of my room, and the exploration of my new & improved art formations…It’s going to be a good year.
Dear Old Man Jenkins,
These kids and their flying machines. I love and adore you so much more than I ever can express. Everything in our lives right now is scary and complicated and in the air, but you still do so much for me. When I got to live with you in our apartment and grew to know you more as an adult and not as a child, I respected you more and more every day. I see that you’re human but I & everyone I know of thinks you’re a pure soul and we’re baffled as to how. Every single day I wake up and even if on the surface I’m hating on myself for the situation, I really do love myself. I stick up for myself. I watch other people humiliate their worth and I realize they didn’t have you as a cheerleader when they needed it that I did.
Things weren’t always super perfect with us, but my favorite thing is talking to you. Getting to know you, and how you feel. And maybe birthdays aren’t your favorite things..but I need to explain to you that you changed the world with this day 48 years ago, and every second of my life I have been daddy’s little girl because I feel so spiritually and brilliantly connected to you in a way where most people couldn’t even get close to with a parent. It’s heart breaking. You’re not just my parent, you’re you. My best friend, usually my only friend, my main source of support, my confidence boost, my healthy reminders, my reassurance, and I will never ever forget all that you do for me and how you calm me down no matter what. I learn a lot from you so when you think one of my thoughts sounds profound, just know I learned to think in that certain way because of you. Thank you so much for being there for me and I love you a ton.
It’s about time I posted about how life changing 2017 was! I’ve been meaning to make a post with my shoots from the year put into a video, and I’m comin’ at you now on Feb 2nd having just finished the video. I did a video for my 2016 shoots, but honestly, that was so boring. Like, not even I can watch it, even though I’m one of those people who repeatedly watches my own videos. So for this one, my goal was to make it watchable, at least for a bit. This is only video #1 and there will be a part two whenever I get around to it, because these are ONLY my shoots from January – July 2017. August-December is where it’s at with some of the best shoots I’ve ever done in my life, and I’m excited for that. Anyway, the beginning part of 2017 was life changing as well. I’m really proud of myself man. And now I present, the My Prerogative project, 2017 pt 1, ishopfordays *insert lots of heart emojis*
Interesting story I just remembered…When I was in 3rd or perhaps 4th grade, I was stylin’ and cute as ever (of course). I think that was the time when I was transitioning from buying everything from Gymboree at my younger ages to Justice. I always had like one store that was my designated store for as long as possible before I got tired of it. First it was Gymboree (I still remember adding stuff to my cart and creating wishlists on there and ordering from there every season when I was like 7) and then it became Justice, which I became SO passionate about. Neon green jeans, peace sign tees, neon everything actually… Then it was briefly Kohl’s at I transitioned into middle school and junior high. And now it’s Nasty Gal. It’s been Nasty Gal for years. BUT back to my point…
In 3rd grade(ish) I was wearing such an adorable outfit one day. But when I went out to recess and saw that it was raining, I was SO cold. My friends asked why I didn’t have a jacket and I’m like “Because I’m wearing this shawl thing!” my mom and teachers kept telling me that a shawl isn’t a jacket, lol. So I hid in the corner of the blacktop just waiting for the cold to end, but dang I looked so adorable. These light pink colors with fun soft patterns — I don’t even own a shawl right now, but it’s cool that I did at some point! I’ve always been so fashion savvy. Hmm wait maybe I have old pictures. HAHAHA I was looking for old fashionable pictures of myself but all I found was a bunch of super hilarious pictures from 2007-2009! HAHA omg like when I got my first eyeshadow palette and Maren and I played with it… Or when Maren and I made music videos to the songs Can’t Be Tamed and Toxic. I was such a funny child.
That’s so funny. Alright we all can have some great laughs at that. Anyway. Moving on.
Lately I’ve been wanting a pair of white sneakers. Pretty random, yes, and I’m not really sure why I want some. But the last time I got new sneakers it was my black vans, like nearly 3 years ago. And other than that I have another pair of vans but in bright orange that I got from Plato’s Closet and then I have these interesting high-tops from Shoedazzle from like 4-5 years ago. Other than that, all my old adventuring sneakers and stuff have retired. So I’m thinking…wouldn’t it be cool if I got a pair of those white Gucci sneakers? They have like a MILLION different designs for them. Tbh, these are the ones I want. Aren’t they so cute? OR THESE but I’m not sure how they would look with the heel down. Cool idea though. But I don’t necessarily have $600 to spend on a pair of sneakers…Like I would totally use my credit for them but my credit limit is $500! haha. But I don’t know, I was thinking of just getting these Kendall + Kylie ones, because they’re affordable and adorable and obviously that’s one of my favorite brands. Hmm… By the time I post this I’ll hopefully have bought one of those already. It’ll be so perfect! For all my adventures walking a longass time in the woods, they’ll get dirty but they’ll show so many memories!
In 2002 (age 4), I was trying on a dress using the slip that my mom bought for it. After putting on the slip, I thought it was so cute! I asked my mom if I could wear it by itself but she said no. But I was so excited about how it looked so I threw on some purple socks and used a head-flashlight thing as an accessory. I started modeling for them until my mom finally got the camera. I had loved this shoot, it was so fun, and that’s one of my earliest memories when it comes to fashion. And so on life went…
Hey everyone! So I’ve been trying to figure out if i want to post this outfit. I originally was going to post it on Valentine’s Day (it was my VDay outfit) but then I didn’t, and now I’m not sure what to do because I think some of these pictures turned out cute! So I decided I know exactly how to format it. Back in last July, I did a photoshoot with a new romper I got, and I loved it. However, I wore the same romper again for VDay, so I thought I’d do a little comparison between the two. It’s like…Half a year of a difference.
I gotta say, right off the bat I’m going to say my hair is way better in this shoot. No more awkward baby hairs and rooky extensions, I chopped my hair and now it is what it is. I always thought that cutting my hair shoulder was like declaring defeat, but it’s not at all! Sure I REALLY miss my long hair, but most of it fell out and my head is barely starting to re-flourish, so I mean what else can I do? Just gotta wait until it grows out. In the meantime, I’m liking the short ‘do for a while!
So, here’s the question…What do you think I’ve improved on from then to now? Or which style do you prefer? What was your favorite part of each of these? What are some really noticeable differences that either seemed significant or cool in some way? Always feel free to comment here, or e-mail me at email@example.com!
Hello all! I hope you’re having a good Thanksgiving! Today I wanted to take the time to express my thanks for everything that I’m blessed with, including this blog and all the people who view it. In this world, the thing that I’m most thankful for is getting to spend time with my beautiful girlfriend Ally, but also the ability to express my passion and creativity through my photoshoots which I adore. It’s really like living the dream, all I ever want is to be able to express this love of fashion I have and I definitely do get that!
I know that with a lot of different holidays I make a special outfit for the occasion, but today I just wanted to go down memory lane with the past year and talk about how thankful I am for how I grow and how I live and how I thrive. Continue reading for some throwbacks.
It’s crazy how things can change. A year ago I attempted this photoshoot which I call Cornered, and it’s really sad to me how unhealthy I look! It’s crazy I was even able to do the photoshoot. Cornered was created 8/14/15, let’s compare that to my mini photoshoot Hustler which was created 8/14/16.
Happy Tuesday! I’m excited to present my first transformation Tuesday! A year ago today, I did a photoshoot called “Happy In Shorts” and it’s actually funny because the name is dumb and the pictures are screwed up, like it’s from back before I fixed my camera. But the photoshoot was intended for this blog but I never ended up posting it. Also, the photoshoot I’m comparing it too is one I did today called “Embroidery in a Studded World“. It’s so incredbly crazy how much has changed, here’s a throwback and comparison! Read more to see more of the photoshoots as well as the details for both.