It snowed here in February and I was really inspired. There was a lot of snow to wake up to. So I got dressed and I went outside with my camera. I’m not usually so easily inspired but I was this time. I had a good flow to me. I’m excited to show this to you! My makeup was pretty great. There’s a few key things about my writing that I need to work on so this is definitely a post to practice on. But in this shoot, you could hardly tell I was wearing a silver key necklace. Oh well, I got an iPhone picture of the necklaces. The cool thing about the Ashley Tisdale shirt I was wearing is I used to have two of them, one I cut myself and sent to my friend, and the other I never cut and wore for this photoshoot. I love distressing shirts. I think soon I’ll be doing a bunch of Dolls Kill photoshoots so I’ll be keeping up on that, but after that I’ll be back to merch again. I love that I do so many merch photoshoots like this. I know the shirt isn’t the central focus of the photoshoot this time but newer photoshoots will focus better! I love this idea I have. Gear up because I have two really good photoshoot ideas for this month. We’ll see how they go. In the meantime I’ll plug in the song Snow Shovels because I thought it went perfectly with the necklaces I’m wearing. It’s from that Gouldian Finch 3 album. Listen to the song through that link. And let me get into this.Continue reading
The coolest thing about me is how universal I can be. Not only is my closet full of urban & glam but it’s also full of merchandise. Graphic tees for days. There’s so many ways to can wear them. Every once in a while I just take pictures of me wearing merch. I know the amount of white tees I’ve blogged about has bound to be a lot but I like the fact that I keep doing the same thing some different way. Makes me feel versatile. Today was a Post Malone tee in the kind Hollywood’s Bleeding, one of my favorite sized shirts. Not to mention one of my favorite white shirts. I’m glad it’s already February because I’ve got a lot lined up for this year. Remember in Solved the Problem when I listed a bunch of nonsense about which posts I was working on? And remember how long it took me to catch up on old photoshoots I was accumulating from the year that I didn’t get around to posting them? Well now that it’s a new year I get to make up for all the blog posts I didn’t get around to doing. There’s still some Dolls Kill clothes I’ve never posted or done a shoot for, when am I going to get around to shooting them? It’ll be this year! It will finally be all of them! So that will be pretty cool, catching up on that now. I’m definitely 100% caught up on photoshoots now too so check out some of my old posts (even just to see those shoots!) to see what I’ve been working on for the past year. This year will be a good one for sure actually. I’m glad I’m doing a post called Hollywood’s Bleeding in the meantime. This is a good shirt to do.Continue reading
Hey guys it’s me on Emotional Support! Remember when I did all those shoots in 2019 and didn’t post them until 2020? Or however I ended up dating & posting them? Or remember the handful of shoots I did in 2020 that I slowly released with them, like using multiple shoots per blog post? Yeah it was a good year for catching up. Today I have one of the last photoshoots to post from this year 2020, and I’m thinking of doing it old style. I might crop the pictures or use them full size. So this was from November and I’m just now getting this up here, it was with some rad pants and this Emotional Support Animal graphic tee from Rainsford which I got at an Aly&AJ concert in mid 2018. Met the girl at her merch table after her set, and it was super cool. So I got this shirt & a lighter from Rainsford that day. This is about the shirt, which I’ve cropped into a crop top by now. Emotional Support Animal is the name of Rainsford’s EP, so check that out if you want to. Such a cool shirt, it says the same thing. Now me with emotional support with myself includes a lot of breathers and some guilt-ridden “get-rid of” things and feelings. Things I could pass on, like excessive vaping, and this random sobriety block that I have with only weed. It’s weird but it’s my life. The lighting for this shoot was interesting. Tried to get it something right but it’s a left. Oh well, finally got my front page of blog posts in the right order, I think. Eventually I’ll be re-editing some of those blog posts, maybe working on them a little bit more. Who knows, when I first did this blog post it was January and I was a little behind on photoshooting, but now I’m moving this post to December because not only was this photoshoot from November 2nd, 2020 but my hair was still long with the blonde at the ends. On December 31st, I got my hair cut to my shoulders, taking off all the left over blonde & leaving my hair my natural color, shoulder length. It was kind of cool, I got the haircut because my hair was falling out for a while. That happens to me sometimes, but oh well. This shoot belongs in 2020 like when I took it, so now it is. December, even. I’ve been working hard on my blog. Let’s get into this post, should be a good one.Continue reading
In 2019 I did so much for myself and my photography, I really did. With the slowing down in 2018 up until the half (and the backdated) like It’s Not U (being one of the only posts I posted in 2019) and all the hair changes, well I’ve finally zeroed down at this point with my hair growing out and toning down… So now I’m here with my half-balayage and my room at my moms again just to be back here posting. I’ve got thousands of pictures of me at my moms, all so different, and fixing my set-up comes soon even. The biggest 2020 addition to my room was the magazine rack, and I’m back with my CD Collection as well, which was always here. So let me tell you a bit about my photography and my merchandise and how it intertwines with my style and my inspiration. One of my only regrets was doing a shoot like Liberation with Matt’s dirty mirror and then not having anything to write about with it, it being the last thing I did in 2018 for my blog. So whatever lack of connection there can’t change my ambition, I’ve seriously found a new ambition. It’s almost hard to explain but one day I just sat in my chair with my hair up, knowing that none of my extensions will fit me for a while, and got pictures of my Playboy shirt from Missguided. I don’t think I ever got pictures of that lot of clothes, something I would’ve done a couple years ago. Like a NastyGal box of clothes that I filed in my book with the order receipt, each thing on the list marked off into pictures, and I kept track. Seriously I used to not miss a thing with my blog. But inspired by Billie I recently cut the nightmare white graphic tees into a crop top and came back home to take a million pictures, not minding that I was cutting out my face. This is where I cross paths to things like CelebrityMerchBase to keep track of all those cool merch shirts I’ve gotten. I even missed that Billie concert but still got the shirts even. This post is about those two things. No wonder about Playboy Style or Billie’s. I named this Scary World! as a good one so thanks all for another Shop For Days post!Continue reading
The thing I love the most about this photoshoot is that beyond my red hair being a draw, I was really able to express myself. Maybe painting the picture & including red is sometimes the point, almost like just in this room I’ve done an almost-blonde shoot that spoke very differently about me. And I did this myself! It is definitely 2020 that I’m doing this, with a point to be throw across from August 2019 – I can’t even believe how much I have to express about this one though. Without pressure, without self-deprecation or judgement, I can post a photoshoot like this and spit it back like it’s resounding. And as for this concert tee, or this concert, which was incredible, I’m really glad to be sporting the red hair with it like Lights and her bright red hair & coordinating merchandise. The concert was incredible, so glad I did a shoot for the shirt. So at least I have this photoshoot to post! It is a long photoshoot. Haha.
I always thought there was a million different ways to wear my graphic tees/merchandise styles. I have way too many photoshoots of merchandise shirts and I’m going to go through all the posts in bulk one day and dissect them for the pictures. That’ll be rad! Read more to see the rest of this shoot.Continue reading
It’s been hard to get back to writing honestly. I’ve lacked inspiration with every sense of the word. But this post is long overdue. I was supposed to post it a month ago. This goes in conjunction with the AWAKE post, where I did show some pictures of this ‘Altar’ I had going on. This was never the finality of the Altar, this was just how it was for the moment while I was waiting to change it. But it was like this for the majority of the last month and a half, or maybe two months. So I want to show you this altar again, tell you why I included a signed lithograph of Alison Wonderland, and tell you why my altar is my safe place – and why being in Idaho is like being ripped away from the safe place I spent 7 months creating for the safety of my heart, mind, body, soul, future and past. But now mercury is in retrograde so I don’t know how the hell to do this. But here’s the altar, before the altar-ations. The album of the post is of course AWAKE by Alison Wonderland, and what I’ve got running through my head right now is…“Can we be okay?”.
CAN WE BE OKAY??
It’s been one month so I’ve finally picked an official breakup song for this round. It’s Awake by Alison Wonderland! I also got a sickass 5-piece pre-order bundle recently from Alison Wonderland for the ‘Awake’ titled album, so I incorporated that into a photoshoot I did with one of my best peeps of this era. She’s dope, let’s get into this post.
“I get it, I messed up, you pushed it, I fell off
You’ll always be better in your own eyes
Goodbye my friend
It’s been too long
I know you’ve been away
Too much was said
Too much was done
And now I’m wide awake.”
Hey guys, this past month I was truly reborn. Slowly but surely my dreams are coming true in the strangest, slowest, confusingest ways possible. So the last day of May I dyed my hair this gorgeous dimensional red and I’m obsessed…with that and my labret lip piercing and I finally felt motivation to write today before the crew comes over and helps me do my greatest comeback shoot. Because here’s the thing. Waiting in my queue was basically just some pics of merch, pics of me in my merch and other gadgets, a couple pics of me with my snake, so I want to cram all of this into one so I can 1. Show you guys this cool stuff — it was put in the queue for a reason. Like each of these, or at least half, were supposed to get spotlight blog posts. But now that’s not what’s happening. I want to take you guys on a journey and show you these loads of merch and a couple other cool things about my last blogshoot days of being brunette. Like how I was for 19 years. I have new stories to share, new craziness or possible excitement to share… And now I get to finish cleaning my room before my peeps arrive and that will start this whole big deal and everyone is excited. Like it’s really super cool that people are this excited about being in my blogshoot. It means freakin’ hella! I’m proud of myself and my blog. The last couple of weeks I sunk into one of the deepest depressions of my life…And after a little support, some new friends, a crazy life hijacking twisty-turny slide, a breakup, a few people to get to know better, like 10 mini rocks later given to people and picked out specially with ones that I feel like resonated with that person, even though each time I gave someone a rock it was my way of saying greetings beautiful stranger, I can tell you’re fuckin’ special. Greetings humans, I want nothing but to treat y’all with love and respect. Pluuuus++++ drugs. Producing music videos. Reaching out of my comfort zone. Dangerous stunts. Learning the way to not take things personally. Understanding people. Missing people. Finding myself. And then there’s also that time that I got pics of my little booty in my Lights booty shorts, too.
90s jeans? 2010 album by Lights? Hot pink tank top? Rhetorical questions + lots of question marks?? What could that mean? The Listening. The Electro-Pop slaying jams that made 2010 as amazing as it was. I was a fan back then, watching the Ice music video in like 2009. But now I take Lights merch to the next level of course, just because I can, and just for lots of fun. You saw me in a 2010 Lights shirt in the photoshoot “Everybody Breaks A Glass” and with a purple 2010 Lights button in Can’t Pin Me Down & others, but this post is all about The Listening album and how it slayed my life past & present even though I think this shirt is from 2009 but yeah same general era anyway. Hahaha. So yeah another outside photoshoot…woo spring!
I can’t see anything in the snow. I can’t see anything except the cold feel on my skin, or the crunch of ice beneath whatever shoes and their level of practicality for the day. I wiggle my toes to see if they’re still there, and they are. And I’m also still breathing. When I take my deepest breath and look around I can learn to see and feel at the same time, but as you may or may not have noticed that’s not a usual thing for people to have adapted yet in regular situations. I embrace the newfound form of my third eye and be thankful I have any eyes. I hear music, and it’s my brothers, and it sounds different than what plays from my speaker. From my heart to my head to my body mind and soul, I hear/feel/see/touch/think/observe differently. But there’s a way to go from So Blind in the Snow (snowblind) to what I’ll introduce to you as “so kind to let it show”. So let me introduce you to not only allll the amethyst stuff I’m wearing from Amethyst Dreams but let me unblind y’all or something. No basically I’ll just show you the Snowblind words and break them down and let you know how I’m feeling and what I’ve overcome with just thinking of my own personal right to have power and feel strength. Blog it baby one more time.