I think I’m always doing really good as I go with every day, making progress with everything I love. I’ve always been really driven and ambitious for who I am, and I love getting to step up and do something with my time or life when I get the chance. Blogging to me is always something I have done for myself since I was like 16, and I made sure to know it as a passion and everything so I could continue putting myself and my energy into it. I used to want to get up and take pictures of myself all the time, and I always had this love for style and makeup, so I ended up doing a bunch of really cool things of myself since I started as the years went on. I love that I still do this for myself, and I know I’ll get better and better sometimes too which is fun to work towards. I totally see progress even in this shoot itself, I think I did really good with the red and white colors together! Also, this was my last photoshoot I did with my faded hair again (which is like blonde) so we’ll see it re-dyed in the next photoshoot, but I loved the contrast I did with the coloring of this outfit to my hair. I think it all turned out great, and I finally got pictures of this Lana Del Rey shirt that I got near the end of May (or early June) last year in 2021. It’s a pretty white t-shirt that says, in red writing, “Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost – LDR” which is from a song from her 2021 album ‘Chemtrails Over the Country Club’ which is pretty awesome. I even also have a Chemtrails iPhone case that I love, but I didn’t include it in the photoshoot! Such a great album though, I love Lana Del Rey with all my heart. She’s one of my overall favorites most of the time which is awesome. This year has been going great so far with my creativity and doing my best to fuel it, it all comes together pretty well and I’m glad about that. I’ve also been pretty busy this month as well, in the last week of mine I went to my 2022 family reunion the day after I did this photoshoot! It was totally cool, we all went camping together and I loved it. Next I had a concert on Thursday (which was Halsey, #74 that you can find on this page!) and then a meeting Friday etc., but I’m finally done with everything and just writing this today. This week should be pretty good too, just more of the usual of like meetings and stuff. I’m totally glad about everything though, I think things are ending up in a good place most of the time and I really love how I keep moving forward all the time. Continuing reading for more next up, collages & more as well!Continue reading
The springtime is sometimes an awesome time for me with everything in the air smelling amazing finally and me finally feeling like I have another new season, which is cool and different from the summertime. They’re both different significant to me but I really appreciate when it’s finally a new season like this one, especially with everything that’s going on for me these days. This is turning out to be a promising year, and I’m so glad with everything I’ve been into since starting my outpatient treatment (for addiction) since last year in the summer (mid-July), and also everything I’ve been doing since I turned 23 in November. I, in addition to the meetings I’ve been going to and photoshoots I’ve been doing, have also been to a lot of concerts in the last half of a year (or since August) or so which has also been an awesome part of my life that I’ve finally been able to come back to since the last few years or more. I’m really glad at to where I’m at and what places I’ve gotten to mentally, and I think I’m making good progress on myself and my life everywhere possible as I go. Plus, I’ve also done really well since being back with my boyfriend (since last June actually, but we first got together in 2018) so that’s also still happening in my life! I’m pretty proud as to how everything’s turned out. Now in terms of this outfit, this kind of happened spontaneously with this Abbey Dawn brand ‘Rebel’ t-shirt (designed by Avril Lavigne in 2015) that I put together with a flag on it that matched my jeans. You can find the #merchstyle blog post for this shirt in particular on my website CelebrityMerchBase.com right here as well, featuring the same photoshoot!. I will remember to shoot my merchandise more, but this totally counts and I’m glad I put this together for this photoshoot this time. The last time I mentioned this t-shirt, it was around the same time in April but in 2016, and I wore it in some iPhone pictures with my ex-girlfriend for a blog post called Springtime Spunk. After so long I finally actually got the picture in a shoot like this, and I think it turned out awesome. In the past while I’ve also really been loving my makeup, as of lately still, and I’ve been doing really well with it all year too so I just really appreciate that passion of mine too and I’m glad I can always tie it in well to my photoshoots, and I keep good lists of all my makeup I do to my shoots so that’ll be in here later as well. Thanks so much for reading, ‘read more’ to see the rest of it!Continue reading
Something I love about merchandise is how long I will have this collection, and how much it serves me to utilize it. I have a ton of merch shirts from over the years, one of my first ones being from 2007. I even have like 3 Tove Lo shirts and this yellow one is one of them. They’re all cut into crop tops and I wear them now and again, and they’re perfect. This first Tove Lo shirt I got for Christmas of 2019 from my mom with these same leggings as well. This shirt was called Icon Chaos and I love it, with all the graphics on the back of it. This is a good shoot for this! Can’t believe it’s taken me a year and a half to do the photoshoot for this outfit finally. And last month I got my hair dyed red again! First shoot for the red hair comeback, this is perfect. I think my red hair goes with pretty much all of my outfits, so we’ll see where I go from here to see how it continues to suit me. Eventually I’ll even get my extensions back in there and that’ll be perfect. Of course I cut my hair on New Year’s Eve, that was perfect for the new year and all the shoots I’ve done since. But now it’s red and it’s been half a year so it’s growing back out, it’ll be long again eventually! That’s the only thing I hate about cutting my hair, waiting for it to be full length again. But that’s what I did and I love the decision, my hair is growing back fast now. I can’t wait for it to thicken out more too, but all in due time with baby hairs. I’m doing pretty good this summer I think! Was taking a little bit of a break from blogging but now I’m back and we’ll see how things go. Excited about what’s coming up, I’m back with my boyfriend Matt, so eventually I’ll be doing some more photoshoots with him again too. Check this category here to see what we’ve done and posted together over the past couple of years! Getting back to everything now.Continue reading
It snowed here in February and I was really inspired. There was a lot of snow to wake up to. So I got dressed and I went outside with my camera. I’m not usually so easily inspired but I was this time. I had a good flow to me. I’m excited to show this to you! My makeup was pretty great. There’s a few key things about my writing that I need to work on so this is definitely a post to practice on. But in this shoot, you could hardly tell I was wearing a silver key necklace. Oh well, I got an iPhone picture of the necklaces. The cool thing about the Ashley Tisdale shirt I was wearing is I used to have two of them, one I cut myself and sent to my friend, and the other I never cut and wore for this photoshoot. I love distressing shirts. I think soon I’ll be doing a bunch of Dolls Kill photoshoots so I’ll be keeping up on that, but after that I’ll be back to merch again. I love that I do so many merch photoshoots like this. I know the shirt isn’t the central focus of the photoshoot this time but newer photoshoots will focus better! I love this idea I have. Gear up because I have two really good photoshoot ideas for this month. We’ll see how they go. In the meantime I’ll plug in the song Snow Shovels because I thought it went perfectly with the necklaces I’m wearing. It’s from that Gouldian Finch 3 album. Listen to the song through that link. And let me get into this.Continue reading
The coolest thing about me is how universal I can be. Not only is my closet full of urban & glam but it’s also full of merchandise. Graphic tees for days. There’s so many ways to can wear them. Every once in a while I just take pictures of me wearing merch. I know the amount of white tees I’ve blogged about has bound to be a lot but I like the fact that I keep doing the same thing some different way. Makes me feel versatile. Today was a Post Malone tee in the kind Hollywood’s Bleeding, one of my favorite sized shirts. Not to mention one of my favorite white shirts. I’m glad it’s already February because I’ve got a lot lined up for this year. Remember in Solved the Problem when I listed a bunch of nonsense about which posts I was working on? And remember how long it took me to catch up on old photoshoots I was accumulating from the year that I didn’t get around to posting them? Well now that it’s a new year I get to make up for all the blog posts I didn’t get around to doing. There’s still some Dolls Kill clothes I’ve never posted or done a shoot for, when am I going to get around to shooting them? It’ll be this year! It will finally be all of them! So that will be pretty cool, catching up on that now. I’m definitely 100% caught up on photoshoots now too so check out some of my old posts (even just to see those shoots!) to see what I’ve been working on for the past year. This year will be a good one for sure actually. I’m glad I’m doing a post called Hollywood’s Bleeding in the meantime. This is a good shirt to do.Continue reading
In 2019 I did so much for myself and my photography, I really did. With the slowing down in 2018 up until the half (and the backdated) like It’s Not U (being one of the only posts I posted in 2019) and all the hair changes, well I’ve finally zeroed down at this point with my hair growing out and toning down… So now I’m here with my half-balayage and my room at my moms again just to be back here posting. I’ve got thousands of pictures of me at my moms, all so different, and fixing my set-up comes soon even. The biggest 2020 addition to my room was the magazine rack, and I’m back with my CD Collection as well, which was always here. So let me tell you a bit about my photography and my merchandise and how it intertwines with my style and my inspiration. One of my only regrets was doing a shoot like Liberation with Matt’s dirty mirror and then not having anything to write about with it, it being the last thing I did in 2018 for my blog. So whatever lack of connection there can’t change my ambition, I’ve seriously found a new ambition. It’s almost hard to explain but one day I just sat in my chair with my hair up, knowing that none of my extensions will fit me for a while, and got pictures of my Playboy shirt from Missguided. I don’t think I ever got pictures of that lot of clothes, something I would’ve done a couple years ago. Like a NastyGal box of clothes that I filed in my book with the order receipt, each thing on the list marked off into pictures, and I kept track. Seriously I used to not miss a thing with my blog. But inspired by Billie I recently cut the nightmare white graphic tees into a crop top and came back home to take a million pictures, not minding that I was cutting out my face. This is where I cross paths to things like CelebrityMerchBase to keep track of all those cool merch shirts I’ve gotten. I even missed that Billie concert but still got the shirts even. This post is about those two things. No wonder about Playboy Style or Billie’s. I named this Scary World! as a good one so thanks all for another Shop For Days post!Continue reading
Today I have something really cool I’ve waited a year to post. For a long time this was actually the last photoshoot I had done before a big break in between the years but I’m finally getting it down. Moodswings is similar to Save Yourself in that it was inspired the same artist as Moodswings, who opened for Lights in August 2019. Tillie, is who it is. I included the shirt I got from the concert, but I also got a choker. What I really like about this photoshoot is that it’s another dark-outside type. Matt was the one I did this shoot with too, he took most of the pictures. So here’s this one! Sorry for the crazy order of my posts, but 2019 & 2020 went hand in hand for posting because I was trying to fill in wherever I did a photoshoot that I never posted. So the cool thing about my tiled galleries is they speak volumes, like whether or not in order. So Moodswings was an outside photoshoot of mine with another merch shirt from yet another concert.Continue reading
The thing I love the most about this photoshoot is that beyond my red hair being a draw, I was really able to express myself. Maybe painting the picture & including red is sometimes the point, almost like just in this room I’ve done an almost-blonde shoot that spoke very differently about me. And I did this myself! It is definitely 2020 that I’m doing this, with a point to be throw across from August 2019 – I can’t even believe how much I have to express about this one though. Without pressure, without self-deprecation or judgement, I can post a photoshoot like this and spit it back like it’s resounding. And as for this concert tee, or this concert, which was incredible, I’m really glad to be sporting the red hair with it like Lights and her bright red hair & coordinating merchandise. The concert was incredible, so glad I did a shoot for the shirt. So at least I have this photoshoot to post! It is a long photoshoot. Haha.
I always thought there was a million different ways to wear my graphic tees/merchandise styles. I have way too many photoshoots of merchandise shirts and I’m going to go through all the posts in bulk one day and dissect them for the pictures. That’ll be rad! Read more to see the rest of this shoot.Continue reading
It’s been hard to get back to writing honestly. I’ve lacked inspiration with every sense of the word. But this post is long overdue. I was supposed to post it a month ago. This goes in conjunction with the AWAKE post, where I did show some pictures of this ‘Altar’ I had going on. This was never the finality of the Altar, this was just how it was for the moment while I was waiting to change it. But it was like this for the majority of the last month and a half, or maybe two months. So I want to show you this altar again, tell you why I included a signed lithograph of Alison Wonderland, and tell you why my altar is my safe place – and why being in Idaho is like being ripped away from the safe place I spent 7 months creating for the safety of my heart, mind, body, soul, future and past. But now mercury is in retrograde so I don’t know how the hell to do this. But here’s the altar, before the altar-ations. The album of the post is of course AWAKE by Alison Wonderland, and what I’ve got running through my head right now is…“Can we be okay?”.
CAN WE BE OKAY??
90s jeans? 2010 album by Lights? Hot pink tank top? Rhetorical questions + lots of question marks?? What could that mean? The Listening. The Electro-Pop slaying jams that made 2010 as amazing as it was. I was a fan back then, watching the Ice music video in like 2009. But now I take Lights merch to the next level of course, just because I can, and just for lots of fun. You saw me in a 2010 Lights shirt in the photoshoot “Everybody Breaks A Glass” and with a purple 2010 Lights button in Can’t Pin Me Down & others, but this post is all about The Listening album and how it slayed my life past & present even though I think this shirt is from 2009 but yeah same general era anyway. Hahaha. So yeah another outside photoshoot…woo spring!