This month was a good one to wrap up the year of 2021 for me. I’m really glad of how I’ve been making progress, especially with my sobriety overall from the last year, but I’m even more excited to start a new year after this one. I have a lot of ideas for photoshoots and outfit ideas for the next year of photoshoots, so that’ll be good for myself to keep persisting and growing creatively. What is significant for this month to end the year also is that I ended up getting this red butterfly tattoo in the beginning of the month, as a birthday present from my dad. My birthday was on the 15th of last month, and I can’t believe I finally got this tattoo! It’s only my second tattoo, but I have both of them on the same arm. I got a bunch of good pictures of the tattoo in this few-shades of red outfit that I put together, and I think this was perfect to wrap up all of this year’s photoshoots as a timeline. I’ve got a lot to look forward to, but it’s all just one day at a time stuff that I’m slowly progressing with. I don’t really have any big plans or anything like that, but I just do a lot of the same stuff at home everyday and go to the same sorts of meetings every week and other than that, I can’t wait to hype up a bit more and see what more I can do with blogging coming up next year. I’ve at least got my rhythm going this year with posting at least once a month, but we’ll see if I get around to doing any more of that eventually. I’ll just keep pushing on and see where I can get to with everything, it’s just really been over 6 years of blogging that I’ve been writing and I just really love Shop For Days with all my heart. Through this year specifically I really saw myself flourish a bit more creatively after I cut my hair on December 31st, and it had gotten pretty long last year so it was crazy to chop it down to my natural hair color! I then finally went back to red hair in June, but I let that fade all the way out and have yet to go back to red again, so there was a couple months of blonde or so that I ended up loving. Now my hair has definitely grown more than I thought it would but I loved seeing how it looks in the past year of blog shoots. I like it dyed definitely more, even just bleached, but I’ve really evolved after I had to kind of start over my hair last year! That’s craziness, but I really love where I’ve gotten to finally. We’ll see what more I get to working on next month and coming up in 2022, I’m excited to see what else I have to do really. So many things left to do with blogging, I hope I get to better express how I’ve progressed and where I’ve really gotten to in the past year of being mostly 22 and finally 23!Continue reading
One of my favorite things to do when I’m finally picking up my speed is to sit down and write. Even when I take a break from blogging for just a second to see where I’m at with everything else, I’m writing pages in a couple of my journals and trying to break down better what I have to digest. It’s like, I have a few different blogs with different styles of writing behind them, but I can’t write on them too often yet because I’m still revolving after getting sober off of alcohol & the rest of it, and my brain has had some time to settle as I go. I think about how I used to write and I really see my strides from over the years, but I’m really excited to get back to writing more and more on my blogs as I go because I will always love making this progress and seeing myself grow on here and worryjustenough.com as well. That’s of course, for more of my lifestyle blogging, but it’s been a couple months since I last blogged on there, which is interesting compared to going to NA (narcotics’ anonymous) meetings all the time now. I’ve been doing that (as well as some IOP meetings for my outpatient treatment) really consistently since July and it’s been really cool to see how everything’s changed for me since then. I’ll definitely be writing more on there later after I publish this blog post, so within the next couple of weeks, so that’ll be cool to get back to. I have a good consistency on here though, Shop For Days, that I’ve kept up with with posting this year that I’m pretty proud of, but at least once a month I get a photoshoot and blog post up here and I love where I’m getting to with them these days. I’ve actually had the concept of Convenience Fee up on my whiteboard and in my journal and stuff as an idea for me to post for a few months now too, but I just now finally got down to working on it, and it ended up being this totally perfect all-black outfit that I’ve worn in a few different sentences, like with this shirt and everything, but the boots were a perfect wrap up and even surprise to it. I found them in the corner of my closet, behind a big white bin I have in front of one of my shoe shelves, and I wasn’t even sure I still had them until I dug them out recently! You’ll see those later in the blog post, I’m glad I got these boots into the shoot this time. For now, the last thing I wanted to point out was this layered lock necklace. I got this last year actually, from Dolls Kill, and it’s pretty big and I love it a lot. It’s pretty perfect that I chose locks for this post/outfit and everything, I’ve done some posts with silver key jewelry (which I collect!) from time to time but I have hardly any locks really. I love the concept of both, I have a lot of things I relate to those that I have a bunch of and eventually I’ll do a big post on all the keys or something. I thought that for this shoot though, I could do the other side and get this big chain necklace of locks into the all-black outfit, and it seemed to balance it out perfectly. These came together really well, even if I waited for so long to get working on this concept, but I think it ended up timing out really well too. This is a good one to be doing for October I’m thinking, and I’m glad I’m here where I’m at in life as well! I feel like I always have some sort of direction or solid ground at least when I get to write or work on something like this, so I’m glad to see where I’ve been getting to creatively these days! I can make so much progress on myself and my blogs (as well as my journals) in a couple of months, so reflection will be a good one to hit upon throughout this post. Hopefully I ramp up with my content more as I go, but where I’m at is looking better finally so I like and my words and topics and ideas these days. So much I’ve worked on over the years, but I’m making such better personal progress now finally!Continue reading
I really have always loved music with all my heart, and I love getting to apply that to my life and express that love. Since like 2007 I’ve been going to concerts and all that, and I used to do a lot of YouTube-ing, talking a lot with people about different artists and celebrities, editing pictures and videos of them. That’s something that I always loved doing growing up, and then I was like in my early adult years (and a couple years before that) going to concerts all the time and collecting merchandise and CDs. I really have a lot to show for my love of music, and I love getting to blog about my concert experiences. This post is about my Louis the Child concert experience, which was like my #64th that I’ve been to. So this has been a big part of my life, concertgoing, and even though I went like a year without attending a show recently I’ve finally been catching up and seeing some this year again. I was front row at this show with my boyfriend Matt, we got there right as the doors opened! The venue filled up a lot after we were stationed in the front, and it was a really cool crowd. Matt first introduced me to Louis the Child in like 2018 actually, with Save Me From Myself. Their new album is really good too, they played my favorite track off of it, Fade Away. So I did what I used to do all the time for concerts and did a photoshoot of my #ConcertAttire, and also an outfit/shoot for the merch shirt that I got from the show. This turned out pretty good, I liked it. We even got a few shots in Seattle but not too much because this was a long show! I’m glad about where I’m at, like I probably mentioned a few times in my last blog post, but these concerts this year really helped to both relax me and hype me about my life and I really see what going to all these does for me. I love expression and energy and all that and I get to express a lot of that with going to shows all the time. Read more to see the photoshoots!
My life has always been some combination of change and consistencies, the things that kept me balanced or taught me some skill to stay on track. Recently a lot of things have piled up, but at first I really thought it would be something I couldn’t handle or shouldn’t have to deal with. I’m stuck doing these meetings all the time, two different kinds, and I wasn’t expecting to be busy 5 days of the week every day for a while but that’s what it looks like. Something my dad was talking to me about recently was how life throws so many things at you that are unexpected but obviously this teaches you resilience and him and I both agree that we’re good at those kinds of throws from life, just knowing the ground we stand on and how stable we are through the most of it. We also talked a lot about regret this past month and it really said something to me, the way these things would pile on top of me. I’d like, go through all of it and wonder how to sit there and look back at it without it pulling my hair, really. Those two things are something I’m talking about here, but I’ve really relieved a lot of pressure in my life and in my mind by having these conversations with him. Now I love going to these meetings, with every piece of my heart, and I’m back to wearing my heels all the time and putting on my lipsticks. My outfits rock these days and this is my 4th week in a row that I’ve had something to do and somewhere to go every single day of the week. I really absolutely love where I’m at, where I’ve finally gotten into in life, and I’m just having so much fun and actually getting things out of these meetings! I love that I get out and do these things, and even if I haven’t blogged as much recently I still post every fucking month, so I’m not slacking too hard even though I’m way busier now. I feel like I really can create this direction in my life with these toolkits I have gotten from all these meetings, and I have this persistence now that I want to keep up with as I go. I’ve made a bunch of good decisions in the midst of the stupid mistakes that I’ve been throwing in there to tag the regret, but I really see what I chose in life and what good it brings me to be here at this point in time. I believe I’m the person I am because I could be, and because I want to be, every single day of my life and that helps a lot when I’m building myself. I spend a lot of time working on myself these days and I really have everything I need finally, and I’m really proud of this photoshoot! I called it Death Row after the Bebe Rexha song, because I have finally hit a point in my life this week where I really understood and just got it, what I’m doing here. Something clicked in my brain shortly after doing this shoot and I am definitely excited about my future. I see what making changes in your life does, and I feel this positive energy that I keep loving and wanting to express, so I will creatively finally. I really see why I got to this point in my life.Continue reading
To start off this blog post I’m just going to say I’ve been wanting a sweatsuit like this for years. Interestingly enough, in 2019 I bought a pair of green Playboy sweatpants from MissGuided and I didn’t get any hoodie to match, but I did get a Playboy shirt also and it was white, which I put in this blog post here. Other than a couple other things, that’s what I got from MissGuided back then. But then came this year, in 2021, when I finally got the opportunity to order from them again, and I got a full-on pink Playboy sweatsuit finally! A matching crop top to the sweatpants, of course. I love it with all my heart, I wear it at all the right times. Then comes Playboy Style, where I get to show off the set as well as my new Gucci glasses that I also adore. I’m excited about this, I know it’s not the most unique photoshoot but it is one that I did and I’m proud of, and am ready to display. I haven’t worn the green sweatpants in over a year or so because they’re probably left in a buried box in storage, but eventually I’ll get those out and I’ll have those in addition to my other lounge clothes (like a collection), but for now I just have this set to wear. Glad I got that order, got a few things that time and I’ve shot some of it but the rest I’ll do later, I’m excited for June’s blog posts already and I know I’ve got things that are good so I’ll get those in line and in order soon, so we’ll see how that turns out. For now I’m almost done catching up with my photoshoots, got them all posted and I’m waiting to do more until the rest from the last couple of months are done and up on the blog. I know exactly what shoots I’m going to do next, but for now let me get to this good one! I love my Playboy style and always will, I hope to get even more someday to post about. Now here we go!Continue reading
While keeping to myself and not bothering too much with a social life, I have a lot of time to think. A lot of self-reflecting to do, finding things I would appreciate by myself. Blogging is one of those things that I just need for myself. And even though I bought this outfit in January 2020 (and am just now getting around to posting it) from Dolls Kill I think it’s still a pretty cool thing to be posting finally. I have a bunch of clothes from that order that I still need to shoot. I’ll get around to all of it eventually. I have multiple Dolls Kill orders in my life that I still need to shoot. Remember in 2017 when I was really on it with Nasty Gal and all my orders from there? That ended with my last yellow jumper from the store to red hair and a Dolls Kill outfit. I’ve pretty much fully switched which online shop I use, thank goodness I already shot the rest of those outfits from Nasty Gal. My closet is up to date with all those old orders. One day I’ll go back to that store but for now I need to catch up on shooting the rest of my Dolls Kill orders. And now that I’m caught up on photoshoots and a little behind on outfits I’ve got a good idea on what to do next. Posting OFFLINE is one of the very first steps with catching up. I’ve just got to keep going with the photoshoots, squeezing in as much as I can. So this post is kind of about all that. It’s a small shoot so there shouldn’t be too much of that confusing stuff I mentioned earlier – I’m pretty much done with mentioning my old posts in new posts. I’ll just refrain for that for now. So let’s get into it. It’s a two-piece matching set from Current Mood that I’m wearing in this post.Continue reading
The coolest thing about me is how universal I can be. Not only is my closet full of urban & glam but it’s also full of merchandise. Graphic tees for days. There’s so many ways to can wear them. Every once in a while I just take pictures of me wearing merch. I know the amount of white tees I’ve blogged about has bound to be a lot but I like the fact that I keep doing the same thing some different way. Makes me feel versatile. Today was a Post Malone tee in the kind Hollywood’s Bleeding, one of my favorite sized shirts. Not to mention one of my favorite white shirts. I’m glad it’s already February because I’ve got a lot lined up for this year. Remember in Solved the Problem when I listed a bunch of nonsense about which posts I was working on? And remember how long it took me to catch up on old photoshoots I was accumulating from the year that I didn’t get around to posting them? Well now that it’s a new year I get to make up for all the blog posts I didn’t get around to doing. There’s still some Dolls Kill clothes I’ve never posted or done a shoot for, when am I going to get around to shooting them? It’ll be this year! It will finally be all of them! So that will be pretty cool, catching up on that now. I’m definitely 100% caught up on photoshoots now too so check out some of my old posts (even just to see those shoots!) to see what I’ve been working on for the past year. This year will be a good one for sure actually. I’m glad I’m doing a post called Hollywood’s Bleeding in the meantime. This is a good shirt to do.Continue reading
My dears, if you know my mom and I, you know how we are. And I hope that with every person we come in contact with, we show them how we love. I think my mom raised me with so much love and taught me love until around this age where now I think we both teach each other more about love and understanding every day. I know I posted that small thing on Facebook that everyone thought was sweet about her and I, however that was just one piece of what I was gonna throw in this post at some point, so if you read that, well…Read this. 😉 The story begins with – like I said, – love and kindness and compassion, and the fact that she is fun with me and yet still has lots of respect for my intellect is like…the best feeling in the entire world. It’s hard to feel alone when even just your mom/ConBon brings the energy of a concert (without the negativity) into whatever room. So I guess you could say we’re besties.
Good afternoon everyone! I haven’t been blogging much this month, things have been so insanely hectic, but I have a lot of projects lined up and I promise at least a couple new posts next week and the weeks after that etc. I have good ideas. But today, I finally get to blog about this photoshoot I did with my lovely friend Jenna, which at first was hard for me to come up with a name for but then I remembered how Harry Styles always reminds me of her because we both love him & so naturally we’re just both Sweet Creatures. It’s pretty accurate for the photoshoot too, especially with the grayscale sort of formation. I can’t wait for the next shoot I get to do with her because I have sooo many ideas. Such a fun photoshoot/glam collaboration. Let’s get into it! Continue reading….
There’s so many incredible things in my life that even prove their credibility, and I think I hit the jackpot there. Things can get hard sometimes but then there are mini miracles here and there that shock me and excited me and prepare me for every aspect of the unknown. It’s pretty crazy and kinda cool, but the coolest thing is, every day I face multiple fears, and the whole year of 2017 I grew through so many milestones. Such a beautiful life! Now I want to show you guys a shoot I did not too long ago, called My House Your House. Named after a song from Angus & Julia Stone’s Snow album, which this photoshoot is inspired by. Your house, my house…Maybe this is where we belong. 🙂