I can’t see anything in the snow. I can’t see anything except the cold feel on my skin, or the crunch of ice beneath whatever shoes and their level of practicality for the day. I wiggle my toes to see if they’re still there, and they are. And I’m also still breathing. When I take my deepest breath and look around I can learn to see and feel at the same time, but as you may or may not have noticed that’s not a usual thing for people to have adapted yet in regular situations. I embrace the newfound form of my third eye and be thankful I have any eyes. I hear music, and it’s my brothers, and it sounds different than what plays from my speaker. From my heart to my head to my body mind and soul, I hear/feel/see/touch/think/observe differently. But there’s a way to go from So Blind in the Snow (snowblind) to what I’ll introduce to you as “so kind to let it show”. So let me introduce you to not only allll the amethyst stuff I’m wearing from Amethyst Dreams but let me unblind y’all or something. No basically I’ll just show you the Snowblind words and break them down and let you know how I’m feeling and what I’ve overcome with just thinking of my own personal right to have power and feel strength. Blog it baby one more time.
Interesting story I just remembered…When I was in 3rd or perhaps 4th grade, I was stylin’ and cute as ever (of course). I think that was the time when I was transitioning from buying everything from Gymboree at my younger ages to Justice. I always had like one store that was my designated store for as long as possible before I got tired of it. First it was Gymboree (I still remember adding stuff to my cart and creating wishlists on there and ordering from there every season when I was like 7) and then it became Justice, which I became SO passionate about. Neon green jeans, peace sign tees, neon everything actually… Then it was briefly Kohl’s at I transitioned into middle school and junior high. And now it’s Nasty Gal. It’s been Nasty Gal for years. BUT back to my point…
In 3rd grade(ish) I was wearing such an adorable outfit one day. But when I went out to recess and saw that it was raining, I was SO cold. My friends asked why I didn’t have a jacket and I’m like “Because I’m wearing this shawl thing!” my mom and teachers kept telling me that a shawl isn’t a jacket, lol. So I hid in the corner of the blacktop just waiting for the cold to end, but dang I looked so adorable. These light pink colors with fun soft patterns — I don’t even own a shawl right now, but it’s cool that I did at some point! I’ve always been so fashion savvy. Hmm wait maybe I have old pictures. HAHAHA I was looking for old fashionable pictures of myself but all I found was a bunch of super hilarious pictures from 2007-2009! HAHA omg like when I got my first eyeshadow palette and Maren and I played with it… Or when Maren and I made music videos to the songs Can’t Be Tamed and Toxic. I was such a funny child.
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Tbh idk what this is but it’s funny
My “Toxic” music video
when I got a new eyeshadow palette LOL
Can’t Be Tamed music video 2009
That’s so funny. Alright we all can have some great laughs at that. Anyway. Moving on.
Lately I’ve been wanting a pair of white sneakers. Pretty random, yes, and I’m not really sure why I want some. But the last time I got new sneakers it was my black vans, like nearly 3 years ago. And other than that I have another pair of vans but in bright orange that I got from Plato’s Closet and then I have these interesting high-tops from Shoedazzle from like 4-5 years ago. Other than that, all my old adventuring sneakers and stuff have retired. So I’m thinking…wouldn’t it be cool if I got a pair of those white Gucci sneakers? They have like a MILLION different designs for them. Tbh, these are the ones I want. Aren’t they so cute? OR THESE but I’m not sure how they would look with the heel down. Cool idea though. But I don’t necessarily have $600 to spend on a pair of sneakers…Like I would totally use my credit for them but my credit limit is $500! haha. But I don’t know, I was thinking of just getting these Kendall + Kylie ones, because they’re affordable and adorable and obviously that’s one of my favorite brands. Hmm… By the time I post this I’ll hopefully have bought one of those already. It’ll be so perfect! For all my adventures walking a longass time in the woods, they’ll get dirty but they’ll show so many memories!
You can check out the full 2011 Toxic Music Video duet that I made with Maren below! Check out that YouTube Channel for our other video(s) that we did together, like Can’t Be Tamed the Dance-Off.
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