It’s a new month and almost fall, and I’m doing so great! I’m always glad about the progress I make from time to time and how I go about everything as time goes on. I also really love how things turned out for this photoshoot – I decided to wear a short sleeve pink striped dress, which is this really comfy material. I love the way it looks on me, it’s a good material for how it fits me. I decided to also include a pair of really cute pink sunglasses that I got in like 2019 from Dolls Kill, they looked really good on top of my head with this dress as a hint that summer is nearly over. I love sunglasses but I haven’t really ever shot them that much before, just a different blue pair in a photoshoot in this blog post and a couple other photoshoots! I love these ones though, I always try to do shoots for as much as what I can from what I’ve gotten from Dolls Kill over the last 3 years or so. It’s, as you probably know, my favorite online store to shop at and always has been since I started ordering from there. You can check out different photoshoots I’ve done with the things I’ve bought there here, in my Dolls Kill category! I have a bunch of things from there, but only a bit of it left to get into photoshoots. I’ve made a lot of progress shooting as much of it as I could! Also, I’m really excited that this is another Convenience Fee blog post. I keep naming photoshoots after the different songs I have on the playlist, it being my favorite playlist I’ve ever had for almost a year now! This photoshoot is named after the 2015 song by Zeds Dead named You Know, which was the second ever song I put on the playlist last fall. I really love this song a lot, it’s a classic. I found it last fall as well. I might also end up seeing Zeds Dead next month with my friend in Seattle, but we’ll see if it ends up happening! That would definitely be amazing, & I think it would be perfect timing too. Let’s get into the photoshoot.Continue reading
August is a good month so far, I’m glad I’ve been back hanging out with friends and things like that after all that happened last month. I’m doing pretty good, I feel like things keep getting better! I was excited to get up and do a photoshoot for this outfit this weekend, I ended up doing it with this cute white star shirt that my mom got me earlier this summer from California which she went to. I think it’s super cute and fits me well, I love stars on everything and the rhinestones they used for this shirt sure are cute. White also sometimes looks pretty good on me so I love that. Anyway, I’ve been doing a lot of the same stuff as I usually do, but my mood is getting kind of better as I go because things have changed. I’m focusing more on myself and have been able to do better things for myself, and I kind of represent that sometimes too with the things around me. I can’t believe that most of the summer is almost over, I love the weather as usual and everything but I also can’t wait to see what comes next as I continue throughout my life. This photoshoot is a pretty good one as well, let’s get into this one!Continue reading
The springtime is sometimes an awesome time for me with everything in the air smelling amazing finally and me finally feeling like I have another new season, which is cool and different from the summertime. They’re both different significant to me but I really appreciate when it’s finally a new season like this one, especially with everything that’s going on for me these days. This is turning out to be a promising year, and I’m so glad with everything I’ve been into since starting my outpatient treatment (for addiction) since last year in the summer (mid-July), and also everything I’ve been doing since I turned 23 in November. I, in addition to the meetings I’ve been going to and photoshoots I’ve been doing, have also been to a lot of concerts in the last half of a year (or since August) or so which has also been an awesome part of my life that I’ve finally been able to come back to since the last few years or more. I’m really glad at to where I’m at and what places I’ve gotten to mentally, and I think I’m making good progress on myself and my life everywhere possible as I go. Plus, I’ve also done really well since being back with my boyfriend (since last June actually, but we first got together in 2018) so that’s also still happening in my life! I’m pretty proud as to how everything’s turned out. Now in terms of this outfit, this kind of happened spontaneously with this Abbey Dawn brand ‘Rebel’ t-shirt (designed by Avril Lavigne in 2015) that I put together with a flag on it that matched my jeans. You can find the #merchstyle blog post for this shirt in particular on my website CelebrityMerchBase.com right here as well, featuring the same photoshoot!. I will remember to shoot my merchandise more, but this totally counts and I’m glad I put this together for this photoshoot this time. The last time I mentioned this t-shirt, it was around the same time in April but in 2016, and I wore it in some iPhone pictures with my ex-girlfriend for a blog post called Springtime Spunk. After so long I finally actually got the picture in a shoot like this, and I think it turned out awesome. In the past while I’ve also really been loving my makeup, as of lately still, and I’ve been doing really well with it all year too so I just really appreciate that passion of mine too and I’m glad I can always tie it in well to my photoshoots, and I keep good lists of all my makeup I do to my shoots so that’ll be in here later as well. Thanks so much for reading, ‘read more’ to see the rest of it!Continue reading
A good way to celebrate Valentine’s Day of 2022 is with a good outfit and photoshoot! I’m excited about this one, it turned out really good. I have the red hair going with this red skirt that I’ve wanted to shoot for such a long time, and I finally got around to it! These pink earrings are very similar to these red ones I used to have in 2018, in like this blog post with the leather dress, but they’re of course light pink instead of the red. I think the look turned out really perfect this year, I’m glad to do another holiday post finally. I wore this outfit to go hangout with my boyfriend on Monday, and we went out to dinner and everything. I’m glad I got to see him this day, it worked out pretty well! This year is going pretty well for me so far, I like how my shoots have been turning out and everything. Still most of my photoshoots will be in this same room but I keep finding really good angles for it this time around, and I’m pretty proud of how it has all turned out. I also really think my makeup turned out well for this photoshoot as well, I love my eyes in it with all my heart. I used Redrum by Jeffree Star Cosmetics for the lipstick, and Pillar Box Red by Butter London on my nails with a shimmer top coat (Desiree) from Julep over top of it. So pretty much red everything with the pink earrings and these nude pumps. I even put on my fluffy coat I got from my friend at the end and got some pictures of my outfit in that, which turned out pretty good. This is just a festive shoot I did next to my magazine rack and I love how it turned out. It’s been a while since I’ve got any pictures in pumps, too, like so many years, but I finally put on a pair of them for another shoot this time around! I have so many shoes in my closet that I need to wear more for photoshoots, but I do pretty well with alternating through them and getting different pairs in my shoots and posts throughout each year so I’m proud of how I’ve been doing with that. Hopefully I can keep up with that consistency as I go, I really like how things turn out with keeping things like that. I should never over-shoot any piece of clothing again, but I’m getting good at being aware of that so I’ll just keep going. Thanks so much for checking out this blog post and my blog, continue reading to see some more!Continue reading
I’m pretty excited to begin this year and lay everything out in front of me, it’ll be good to see where I get to next. As per usual I do a lot of the same things that I have been doing for the past 6 months, but these days I think my attitude is improving now too. I had some goals and things to focus on nearing the end of last year, but now I’ve settled in better and I’m more relaxed to see what’s going on for this year. In terms of what’s helped get me excited, I just have these clothing pieces and makeup items I’m excited to finally use more and incorporate into photoshoots, but also my journaling! I love my journals so much, I haven’t written in them as much as I’ve wanted to but that’s something to push myself for this year. I did sit down recently though, right at the end of the year, and did another couple of pages for my vision journal, which turned out really great. I don’t work on that as much as I’ve usually worked on my hand-written journals, but I love both and they always get me started on something to think about and everything. So that’s a focus for this year, let me get into what this photoshoot is about next! I ended up meeting a new friend at the Alano Club, which I go to for my Narcotic’s Anonymous meetings, and his name is Robert. It’s really cool to have started talking to him, especially because he makes a lot of interesting clothes and jewelry and things like that and he wanted to share some with me. So he ended up giving me this bikini, hand-crocheted two-piece set that I love with all my heart, that he made by hand. I thought it was so perfect for a shoot! It was near the end of December that he gave it to me, and it’s my first thing I’ve shot for the new year of 2022. It turned out really good, and the colors are perfect for this timing! Not to mention my blonde hair here, I’ll eventually get my hair dyed again but I actually love how it ended up blond-ing. A good look for me for the meantime. It’ll be cool to see how my hair grows more too, it grew so well in the last year! Let’s get into this photoshoot now, I love this one.Continue reading
One of the next old photoshoots I have left is this one inspired by Miley’s She Is Coming EP that I was probably listening to – I called it Dream actually. So Die Hard Dream is another I’m throwing up and it’s more about how I looked with the cigarette vs. the weed, why I had both is something I actually really miss sometimes but you’ll see once I show the shoot why it’s a little different actually. So my dream (cont.) is to be in this stabilized mindset of inspiration. I’m naturally really inspired but there’s a halt sometimes. Things like this are like the kind of glue that makes you work right.
Welcome to the greatest show, the greatest show you’ve ever seen before — this post is the new era. THE new era. The red hair, balayage like Christina 2001. Labret piercing like Xtina 2002. Goodass friends. Cute little models for me this time. Feminism. Loneliness? What comes with a new era… what comes with a new revolution. The way we revolt and the weapons we use. The way we aim and the game we play when we’re ready to slay. We’re girls, take a deep breath and say it loud. CAN’T HOLD US DOWN. ~ conceptually inspired by the 2002 song by Christina Aguilera.
“So. What am I not supposed to, have an opinion? Should I be quiet to speak ’cause I’m a woman? Call me a BITCH ’cause I speak what’s on my mind, when it’s easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled. (((::”…. to be continued press de buttonn.
Hey guys, this past month I was truly reborn. Slowly but surely my dreams are coming true in the strangest, slowest, confusingest ways possible. So the last day of May I dyed my hair this gorgeous dimensional red and I’m obsessed…with that and my labret lip piercing and I finally felt motivation to write today before the crew comes over and helps me do my greatest comeback shoot. Because here’s the thing. Waiting in my queue was basically just some pics of merch, pics of me in my merch and other gadgets, a couple pics of me with my snake, so I want to cram all of this into one so I can 1. Show you guys this cool stuff — it was put in the queue for a reason. Like each of these, or at least half, were supposed to get spotlight blog posts. But now that’s not what’s happening. I want to take you guys on a journey and show you these loads of merch and a couple other cool things about my last blogshoot days of being brunette. Like how I was for 19 years. I have new stories to share, new craziness or possible excitement to share… And now I get to finish cleaning my room before my peeps arrive and that will start this whole big deal and everyone is excited. Like it’s really super cool that people are this excited about being in my blogshoot. It means freakin’ hella! I’m proud of myself and my blog. The last couple of weeks I sunk into one of the deepest depressions of my life…And after a little support, some new friends, a crazy life hijacking twisty-turny slide, a breakup, a few people to get to know better, like 10 mini rocks later given to people and picked out specially with ones that I feel like resonated with that person, even though each time I gave someone a rock it was my way of saying greetings beautiful stranger, I can tell you’re fuckin’ special. Greetings humans, I want nothing but to treat y’all with love and respect. Pluuuus++++ drugs. Producing music videos. Reaching out of my comfort zone. Dangerous stunts. Learning the way to not take things personally. Understanding people. Missing people. Finding myself. And then there’s also that time that I got pics of my little booty in my Lights booty shorts, too.
I can’t see anything in the snow. I can’t see anything except the cold feel on my skin, or the crunch of ice beneath whatever shoes and their level of practicality for the day. I wiggle my toes to see if they’re still there, and they are. And I’m also still breathing. When I take my deepest breath and look around I can learn to see and feel at the same time, but as you may or may not have noticed that’s not a usual thing for people to have adapted yet in regular situations. I embrace the newfound form of my third eye and be thankful I have any eyes. I hear music, and it’s my brothers, and it sounds different than what plays from my speaker. From my heart to my head to my body mind and soul, I hear/feel/see/touch/think/observe differently. But there’s a way to go from So Blind in the Snow (snowblind) to what I’ll introduce to you as “so kind to let it show”. So let me introduce you to not only allll the amethyst stuff I’m wearing from Amethyst Dreams but let me unblind y’all or something. No basically I’ll just show you the Snowblind words and break them down and let you know how I’m feeling and what I’ve overcome with just thinking of my own personal right to have power and feel strength. Blog it baby one more time.
“There are reasons you keep your hands tied
There’s certain things you shouldn’t have tried
So if you gotta tell me something
You better go to the beginning.”
Everybody Breaks A Glass by Lights – Song Inspo of the Post
I have a lot of Lights merch. At one point, I want to catalog all of it, an have it in an organized way where it can be found in the abyss of my other millions of tags and categories of this site. I decided to do a shoot with this Lights shirt that I got that is from her first era, The Listening album, and at first I wanted to make the post about the Listening era/album but the shoot spoke to me as Everybody Breaks A Glass. What I was going through, what I’ve learned and what I’m going through, it really ties into this song. Especially with the state I was in while shooting this outfit. So I got dolled up and ready to shoot this awesome outfit outside infront of these insentient cars, playing around with the sun’s glorious and hidden lighting; and with all of that, I do have a message to share with y’all.