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REBEL

13 Wednesday Apr 2022

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The springtime is sometimes an awesome time for me with everything in the air smelling amazing finally and me finally feeling like I have another new season, which is cool and different from the summertime. They’re both different significant to me but I really appreciate when it’s finally a new season like this one, especially with everything that’s going on for me these days. This is turning out to be a promising year, and I’m so glad with everything I’ve been into since starting my outpatient treatment (for addiction) since last year in the summer (mid-July), and also everything I’ve been doing since I turned 23 in November. I, in addition to the meetings I’ve been going to and photoshoots I’ve been doing, have also been to a lot of concerts in the last half of a year (or since August) or so which has also been an awesome part of my life that I’ve finally been able to come back to since the last few years or more. I’m really glad at to where I’m at and what places I’ve gotten to mentally, and I think I’m making good progress on myself and my life everywhere possible as I go. Plus, I’ve also done really well since being back with my boyfriend (since last June actually, but we first got together in 2018) so that’s also still happening in my life! I’m pretty proud as to how everything’s turned out. Now in terms of this outfit, this kind of happened spontaneously with this Abbey Dawn brand ‘Rebel’ t-shirt (designed by Avril Lavigne in 2015) that I put together with a flag on it that matched my jeans. You can find the #merchstyle blog post for this shirt in particular on my website CelebrityMerchBase.com right here as well, featuring the same photoshoot!. I will remember to shoot my merchandise more, but this totally counts and I’m glad I put this together for this photoshoot this time. The last time I mentioned this t-shirt, it was around the same time in April but in 2016, and I wore it in some iPhone pictures with my ex-girlfriend for a blog post called Springtime Spunk. After so long I finally actually got the picture in a shoot like this, and I think it turned out awesome. In the past while I’ve also really been loving my makeup, as of lately still, and I’ve been doing really well with it all year too so I just really appreciate that passion of mine too and I’m glad I can always tie it in well to my photoshoots, and I keep good lists of all my makeup I do to my shoots so that’ll be in here later as well. Thanks so much for reading, ‘read more’ to see the rest of it!

Rebel Flag t-shirt blog post, designed by Avril Lavigne in 2015
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Valentine

14 Monday Feb 2022

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A good way to celebrate Valentine’s Day of 2022 is with a good outfit and photoshoot! I’m excited about this one, it turned out really good. I have the red hair going with this red skirt that I’ve wanted to shoot for such a long time, and I finally got around to it! These pink earrings are very similar to these red ones I used to have in 2018, in like this blog post with the leather dress, but they’re of course light pink instead of the red. I think the look turned out really perfect this year, I’m glad to do another holiday post finally. I wore this outfit to go hangout with my boyfriend on Monday, and we went out to dinner and everything. I’m glad I got to see him this day, it worked out pretty well! This year is going pretty well for me so far, I like how my shoots have been turning out and everything. Still most of my photoshoots will be in this same room but I keep finding really good angles for it this time around, and I’m pretty proud of how it has all turned out. I also really think my makeup turned out well for this photoshoot as well, I love my eyes in it with all my heart. I used Redrum by Jeffree Star Cosmetics for the lipstick, and Pillar Box Red by Butter London on my nails with a shimmer top coat (Desiree) from Julep over top of it. So pretty much red everything with the pink earrings and these nude pumps. I even put on my fluffy coat I got from my friend at the end and got some pictures of my outfit in that, which turned out pretty good. This is just a festive shoot I did next to my magazine rack and I love how it turned out. It’s been a while since I’ve got any pictures in pumps, too, like so many years, but I finally put on a pair of them for another shoot this time around! I have so many shoes in my closet that I need to wear more for photoshoots, but I do pretty well with alternating through them and getting different pairs in my shoots and posts throughout each year so I’m proud of how I’ve been doing with that. Hopefully I can keep up with that consistency as I go, I really like how things turn out with keeping things like that. I should never over-shoot any piece of clothing again, but I’m getting good at being aware of that so I’ll just keep going. Thanks so much for checking out this blog post and my blog, continue reading to see some more!

Valentine’s Day 2022
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The New Year

10 Monday Jan 2022

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I’m pretty excited to begin this year and lay everything out in front of me, it’ll be good to see where I get to next. As per usual I do a lot of the same things that I have been doing for the past 6 months, but these days I think my attitude is improving now too. I had some goals and things to focus on nearing the end of last year, but now I’ve settled in better and I’m more relaxed to see what’s going on for this year. In terms of what’s helped get me excited, I just have these clothing pieces and makeup items I’m excited to finally use more and incorporate into photoshoots, but also my journaling! I love my journals so much, I haven’t written in them as much as I’ve wanted to but that’s something to push myself for this year. I did sit down recently though, right at the end of the year, and did another couple of pages for my vision journal, which turned out really great. I don’t work on that as much as I’ve usually worked on my hand-written journals, but I love both and they always get me started on something to think about and everything. So that’s a focus for this year, let me get into what this photoshoot is about next! I ended up meeting a new friend at the Alano Club, which I go to for my Narcotic’s Anonymous meetings, and his name is Robert. It’s really cool to have started talking to him, especially because he makes a lot of interesting clothes and jewelry and things like that and he wanted to share some with me. So he ended up giving me this bikini, hand-crocheted two-piece set that I love with all my heart, that he made by hand. I thought it was so perfect for a shoot! It was near the end of December that he gave it to me, and it’s my first thing I’ve shot for the new year of 2022. It turned out really good, and the colors are perfect for this timing! Not to mention my blonde hair here, I’ll eventually get my hair dyed again but I actually love how it ended up blond-ing. A good look for me for the meantime. It’ll be cool to see how my hair grows more too, it grew so well in the last year! Let’s get into this photoshoot now, I love this one.

The New Year bikini photoshoot for 2022
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DIE HARD DREAM.

09 Saturday Nov 2019

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One of the next old photoshoots I have left is this one inspired by Miley’s She Is Coming EP that I was probably listening to – I called it Dream actually. So Die Hard Dream is another I’m throwing up and it’s more about how I looked with the cigarette vs. the weed, why I had both is something I actually really miss sometimes but you’ll see once I show the shoot why it’s a little different actually. So my dream (cont.) is to be in this stabilized mindset of inspiration. I’m naturally really inspired but there’s a halt sometimes. Things like this are like the kind of glue that makes you work right.

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CAN’T HOLD US DOWN (Stripped pt.2)

23 Saturday Jun 2018

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Welcome to the greatest show, the greatest show you’ve ever seen before — this post is the new era. THE new era. The red hair, balayage like Christina 2001. Labret piercing like Xtina 2002. Goodass friends. Cute little models for me this time. Feminism. Loneliness? What comes with a new era… what comes with a new revolution. The way we revolt and the weapons we use. The way we aim and the game we play when we’re ready to slay. We’re girls, take a deep breath and say it loud. CAN’T HOLD US DOWN. ~ conceptually inspired by the 2002 song by Christina Aguilera.

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“So. What am I not supposed to, have an opinion? Should I be quiet to speak ’cause I’m a woman? Call me a BITCH ’cause I speak what’s on my mind, when it’s easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled. (((::”…. to be continued press de buttonn.

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Pre-Revolt Diary of One Cranky Bitch

16 Saturday Jun 2018

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Hey guys, this past month I was truly reborn. Slowly but surely my dreams are coming true in the strangest, slowest, confusingest ways possible. So the last day of May I dyed my hair this gorgeous dimensional red and I’m obsessed…with that and my labret lip piercing and I finally felt motivation to write today before the crew comes over and helps me do my greatest comeback shoot. Because here’s the thing. Waiting in my queue was basically just some pics of merch, pics of me in my merch and other gadgets, a couple pics of me with my snake, so I want to cram all of this into one so I can 1. Show you guys this cool stuff — it was put in the queue for a reason. Like each of these, or at least half, were supposed to get spotlight blog posts. But now that’s not what’s happening. I want to take you guys on a journey and show you these loads of merch and a couple other cool things about my last blogshoot days of being brunette. Like how I was for 19 years. I have new stories to share, new craziness or possible excitement to share… And now I get to finish cleaning my room before my peeps arrive and that will start this whole big deal and everyone is excited. Like it’s really super cool that people are this excited about being in my blogshoot. It means freakin’ hella! I’m proud of myself and my blog. The last couple of weeks I sunk into one of the deepest depressions of my life…And after a little support, some new friends, a crazy life hijacking twisty-turny slide, a breakup, a few people to get to know better, like 10 mini rocks later given to people and picked out specially with ones that I feel like resonated with that person, even though each time I gave someone a rock it was my way of saying greetings beautiful stranger, I can tell you’re fuckin’ special. Greetings humans, I want nothing but to treat y’all with love and respect. Pluuuus++++ drugs. Producing music videos. Reaching out of my comfort zone. Dangerous stunts. Learning the way to not take things personally. Understanding people. Missing people. Finding myself. And then there’s also that time that I got pics of my little booty in my Lights booty shorts, too.

Captain Lights booty shorts, Lights Merch 2017
Custom Etsy made No Doubt pinback hairbow from 2013
One Cranky Bitch shirt from Nasty Gal

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Snowblind

02 Wednesday May 2018

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I can’t see anything in the snow. I can’t see anything except the cold feel on my skin, or the crunch of ice beneath whatever shoes and their level of practicality for the day. I wiggle my toes to see if they’re still there, and they are. And I’m also still breathing. When I take my deepest breath and look around I can learn to see and feel at the same time, but as you may or may not have noticed that’s not a usual thing for people to have adapted yet in regular situations. I embrace the newfound form of my third eye and be thankful I have any eyes. I hear music, and it’s my brothers, and it sounds different than what plays from my speaker. From my heart to my head to my body mind and soul, I hear/feel/see/touch/think/observe differently. But there’s a way to go from So Blind in the Snow (snowblind) to what I’ll introduce to you as “so kind to let it show”. So let me introduce you to not only allll the amethyst stuff I’m wearing from Amethyst Dreams but let me unblind y’all or something. No basically I’ll just show you the Snowblind words and break them down and let you know how I’m feeling and what I’ve overcome with just thinking of my own personal right to have power and feel strength. Blog it baby one more time.

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Somewhere Perfection Lies…

16 Monday Apr 2018

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“There are reasons you keep your hands tied

There’s certain things you shouldn’t have tried

So if you gotta tell me something

You better go to the beginning.”

Everybody Breaks A Glass by Lights – Song Inspo of the Post

I have a lot of Lights merch. At one point, I want to catalog all of it, an have it in an organized way where it can be found in the abyss of my other millions of tags and categories of this site. I decided to do a shoot with this Lights shirt that I got that is from her first era, The Listening album, and at first I wanted to make the post about the Listening era/album but the shoot spoke to me as Everybody Breaks A Glass. What I was going through, what I’ve learned and what I’m going through, it really ties into this song. Especially with the state I was in while shooting this outfit. So I got dolled up and ready to shoot this awesome outfit outside infront of these insentient cars, playing around with the sun’s glorious and hidden lighting; and with all of that, I do have a message to share with y’all.

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This Is Where We Belong

29 Friday Dec 2017

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There’s so many incredible things in my life that even prove their credibility, and I think I hit the jackpot there. Things can get hard sometimes but then there are mini miracles here and there that shock me and excited me and prepare me for every aspect of the unknown. It’s pretty crazy and kinda cool, but the coolest thing is, every day I face multiple fears, and the whole year of 2017 I grew through so many milestones. Such a beautiful life! Now I want to show you guys a shoot I did not too long ago, called My House Your House. Named after a song from Angus & Julia Stone’s Snow album, which this photoshoot is inspired by. Your house, my house…Maybe this is where we belong. 🙂

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Adore Your Days

20 Wednesday Dec 2017

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I wonder how many times I’m going to have to “grow up” before my eyes are really open.  Just when I suspect I’ve figured something out, it’s like, surprise! And it’s a good thing! It’s like I was wearing sunglasses the whole time and forgot to take them off, making me miss details that I wasn’t ready to learn until the next time, when I was ready to see them. Strange metaphor, but it’s hardly a metaphor, more like an analogy. Either way, it’s great that I grow more and more every day. It’s great that I learn new things, it’s great when I stay humble, it’s amazing when I get stronger, it’s awesome when I find out how resilient I already am and even greater of a realization to see that I’m not done growing yet. Meaning, it’s like I have this shield I’ve built, and I think it’s a really cool shield like “wow this is much more powerful than using my arms for defense” and I get so caught up in thinking it’s just cool that things bounced off of it. Here’s the cool part, the part that you can sprinkle in your drinks in the morning to give you hope and keep you stronger. Every day that shield grows stronger, and of course things are still going to affect you, but you can choose the way it affects you. When it hits you but it hits your shield it gives you a chance to pick how to react. It gives you a chance to live for that moment, to retaliate in a beautiful way.

Show them all how strong you really are by rising above all of it. I can’t stop loving the fact that I get higher and higher but sometimes I get scared of falling. But the thing is, I’m not rising above the clouds with magical pixie dust taking me up, scaling largely above the USA, but I’m actually walking up stairs. On good days, it’s an elevator. Like when Danon surprised me for my birthday by taking me to the tallest building in the state, where we rose to level 73, and seeing how beautiful the city was really took a lot of my fear away. Around me was this sweethearted boy, people adoring the city, and a nice guy at the front desk. We were quiet but we were all in awe. And I think that that really is a great representation of what it’s like to be with someone like him and build my shield and armor but also build a catapult of LOVE, and yes him and I rise so high but I’m not scared at all. I feel safe, like this is exactly where I need to be. Being in that building there was no fear of falling, no fear of crashing from 73 floors, just seeing the beauty of the world from a level where we couldn’t be touched by them. None of the negativity, none of it could touch us, although I always seek the love wherever I can find it, and create it when I can’t. And that’s really the bottom line, that’s how we all should live, we should wake up in the mornings up high in a New York hotel or just excited in our own heads or jumping around the street because you like jumping like me, and not be scared at all of what could be below. We’re safe here, with all the amenities that come with growing into such valuable people. It’s your right as a person to grow with no fear, it’s your right to seek the love and cut off the fear, it’s your right and your strength to live as you breathe and I promise you that you will never reach a point in your life where you’re not worth that. Maybe celebrities can live in penthouses high in the sky, with all their money, and it’s probably beautiful, but honestly what’s incredibly beautiful to me is getting to know the people I love and my cat Milkshake. What’s beautiful to me is waking up after not having a nightmare, and realizing what’s to come all day. What’s beautiful to me is I’m still 73 floors high, risen above anything that shouldn’t touch me, so you could say I have my head in the clouds yet I’ve never been so coherent. I’ve never been so intuitive. I’ve never learned that I have THIS much left to learn, and I still haven’t learned a fraction of what I’m about to learn. Tomorrow, the next day, next year, and yesterday…Things to look forward to. Strength is a choice, and I know you’ve earned it.

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un-edited, not even cropped, but look at how much love I have to give!!

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