I think I’ve been doing things right recently, with my normal pacing of everything I have to do and what I focus myself on. I even have been doing better about giving myself time for things too, and preparing for other things to come and making sure I do everything I need to do from here on out. I’ve spent a bunch of time and energy thinking about that, and I’m just glad about where I’ve gotten to with all of my efforts. Everything I have in life is enough for me, and I still always find more ways to fill my cup and acknowledge & appreciate everything on my path and around me. I’m pretty grateful for all that I have and I love the way I’ve been breaking out of myself sometimes to find other things to focus my time and thought on, and I just really appreciate the way things have been working out for me. I know I’m going to continue making progress with everything that I do, and I also love how I’ve been looking at everything a little differently in this past month as I go. I appreciate my boyfriend being in my life as well, and I’m so glad we finally went out and did half a photoshoot together for this post! I got all dressed and ready to do a photoshoot on Monday and spontaneously asked him to take some pictures of me in town, and I was glad he was totally up for that. It’s been a while since we’ve done any pictures together, the last time we got any was downtown in Seattle after a concert for my Euphoria blog post! So that’s pretty cool that him and I finally got to do that again together. I love my pink dress outfit that I did for this post, I got the dress for my birthday last year in November from a small store in the mall called Canal St.! I loved doing pink makeup this time as well, pink makeup is sometimes one of my favorites for sure. Anyway, a lot in my life is usually the same consistently by the time I have another photoshoot, but my outlook keeps changing and I keep appreciating things differently and it’s amazing. Thanks for checking out this blog post, read more!Continue reading
I’m excited about this blog post and photoshoot, I had a lot of fun with my mom and Maren for it. Maren, my cousin, came over here to visit us last month to help us pack up our living room and kitchen, preparing for our remodel that’s finally happening. It was interesting, moving things and packing them up, and Maren worked pretty hard to help us, we we’re grateful to have her over. The two of us used to do these dance-off or music video types of videos way back in the day when we were a whole lot younger, like 2011 and before. One of the examples is on YouTube like this one, but we did a couple videos before that which I’ll eventually find (on my old laptop), and then I’ll post those on YouTube too. Anyway, so of course we had to do a photoshoot 10 years later when she comes to visit us here in Seattle again, so we went to a playground and got some good pictures. The lighting kept fluctuating so we have a few different kinds of lighting for this, but I love how the shoot turned out anyway. We all kind of took turns taking the pictures, standing on all the different playground things to play on. This was a good collaboration, I love what we did with it and how it turned out. The shoot was actually last month but I’m finally getting it up now, probably the last post I’ll do before I get my hair dyed again, so this is a good one. I’m catching up with all my shoots now too, once I get this up it’ll be a fresh slate for me to start shooting again, but I was taking a break from it for a while other than this one actually. We’ll see what comes next for the blog, but doing things like this one is always cool for me anyway, something unique that I can use to change up my perspectives. I don’t think I get too typical or repetitive with my shoots or posts, I think I’m always doing something new or good that I can use to frame myself better, but collaborations are always a unique icing for the cake that changes things up even more. They make it better for me to try with, something that speaks up differently and will never sound the same. I’m glad I’m finally all caught up with shoots this year, I’ve been behind for quite a while but I know exactly what to do next! Great news about this shoot with Maren, now let’s get into it finally.Continue reading
Dear Old Man Jenkins,
These kids and their flying machines. I love and adore you so much more than I ever can express. Everything in our lives right now is scary and complicated and in the air, but you still do so much for me. When I got to live with you in our apartment and grew to know you more as an adult and not as a child, I respected you more and more every day. I see that you’re human but I & everyone I know of thinks you’re a pure soul and we’re baffled as to how. Every single day I wake up and even if on the surface I’m hating on myself for the situation, I really do love myself. I stick up for myself. I watch other people humiliate their worth and I realize they didn’t have you as a cheerleader when they needed it that I did.
Things weren’t always super perfect with us, but my favorite thing is talking to you. Getting to know you, and how you feel. And maybe birthdays aren’t your favorite things..but I need to explain to you that you changed the world with this day 48 years ago, and every second of my life I have been daddy’s little girl because I feel so spiritually and brilliantly connected to you in a way where most people couldn’t even get close to with a parent. It’s heart breaking. You’re not just my parent, you’re you. My best friend, usually my only friend, my main source of support, my confidence boost, my healthy reminders, my reassurance, and I will never ever forget all that you do for me and how you calm me down no matter what. I learn a lot from you so when you think one of my thoughts sounds profound, just know I learned to think in that certain way because of you. Thank you so much for being there for me and I love you a ton.